The Notion of Identity

 
Consciousness is a black sea, with springs and tunnels even darker than its water, with a surface of water through which not even the sun's light can penetrate, an ocean where the mere thought of light glows with its absence. There, behind the curtain of darkness, thoughts float in the orbit of consciousness and sometimes they collide with each other. When the thoughts collide, confusion, debate, conflicts, and feelings about human identity arise: who am I? Who exists behind the dark curtain? Who is revealed when the dark cloth is pulled away? Who belongs to the feeling that their blood --- like the sea, is carbon black? In the dark, bottomless sea, thoughts of acceptance or of the present condition of man rarely have high value, nor that the actual person behind the illusion is fantastic and beautiful. Consciousness attaches an anchor along the human ankle and lets him sink to the bottom, up to the surface flow illusions and surrealistic creatures --- a facade created by consciousness, a reality-turned state only attainable in the imagination. In the dark sea, no colorful fish swim with admirable patterns, and if marine life existed in this sea, the fish would have been hidden from the human eye --- for there is only darkness. In the absence of marine life, the sea is populated by the messengers of darkness. The waves of the dark sea carry with them feelings and thoughts of inadequacy, senselessness, and torment, which like high waves strike the walls of consciousness.


Consciousness is flooded with involuntary thoughts and feelings, which are rarely consistent with reality: They are disconnected whether the individual suffices or not, is appreciated or not, is liked or not, thus the sea ignores what prosperity man has in society --- as long as man is human. the dark sea ruined his existence. The waves of the sea wash over man and identify his deficiencies, and then slowly erode along the edges of the weakness, this causes innumerable pain for man. The process is so painful that the majority of man's thinking power is directed at the edges of darkness. The dominant direction of thought power causes mental pain and confusion. Assume that a magnifying glass is placed over subjective as well as objective weaknesses of the individual, the essential is transformed into the meaningless, and the meaningless --- the marginal, transformed into the significant. Negative thoughts about unchanging qualities spread like pollen, thoughts ruin existence. These thoughts speak to the person with a hard tone of a wish that his parents were other people, that he grew up in other circumstances, that he should be another person he is not like or know anything about, that he had other siblings --- more siblings! That he had a different color in his eyes, or how life would have been different if he had not developed an incurable skin disease in his teens. Truly these thoughts poison the human being, the thoughts are at their core threatening and convince the individual that his inherent qualities are not good enough. Certainly, these thoughts are characterized by irrationality and stupidity.


Man's confusion about the riddle of the self is not static, it is dynamic: Emotions and thoughts are in constant commuting between God and the devil, useless and meaningful, disappointment and satisfaction. Indeed, season, light and darkness play an important role for wherever in the pendulum consciousness is located. The innate, superficial characteristics of man are seemingly meaningless---objectively they lack value, but in the viewer's subjective worldview of tribalism and culture: who is good and who can be trusted, the phenotype of man is transformed into a currency. A currency whose value consists of a person's visible traits. Man lives in a society where his intellectual qualities are subordinate to the person's innate visible qualities, in a society where the person's actions carry less legitimacy than his appearance.


Man is in a community where the immutable is more important than the changeable, where a person's opinions are valued higher than his actions. We live in a world where it is judged to be more important where you come from than where you are going, a world where human actions are stunted, and his meaningless, superficial properties are raised to the skies. Today, the viewer judges him or his fellow humans based on meaningless, static characteristics, instead, the viewer should judge their fellow humans based on who the person actually is and what he actually does. People spend their lives in a society where people are completely uninterested in the intellectual abilities of their fellow human beings but totally captivated by their innate qualities. How does the viewer expect their fellow humans to experience security in their identity?! How can the viewer expect anything other than their fellow human beings to be miserable, worried and completely confused about their self-image? When man is repeatedly judged on the basis of proving to be happy outward, while he rotates inboard?! How is man expected to find security in himself, and develop a compassionate attitude, when he gets confirmation in screaming his opinions at opponents instead of respectfully listening and discussing!? How should people not be subjected to constant confusion of identity when their exterior is valued higher than their interior!? Indeed, today's society is morally decaying. The society of the future must consist of values that confirm man for who he truly is, with value in his actions, not his phenotype. Forget a community to affirm each other's individuality and intellectual qualities, their actions, or the absence of actions! Whose community instead consists of affirming the outer---worthless qualities, were then sure that human misery is within reach?


Man imagines that his identity needs to be changed in order to become more appreciated, that it is needed in order to experience increased happiness and satisfaction---that change is necessary. In conjunction with this notion, man begins to take active steps toward changing his individual, convinced that this change will be magnificent, that the consequences of the change make him more seen and listened to. Once the human identity has changed, the calm of security man does not imagine, the voice in his head has not silenced---it continues in the same spirit, the voice requires more change, greater change! This time, the voice assures man that after the next identity change, man will be rewarded with gold and green forests. Man continues to adapt to the identity he thinks he wants to be, not who he knows he is. The question is whether there is a final destination on identity confusion at all? Assume that there is a final destination, a state where man is in touch with who they are, and can clearly see their shortcomings and strengths. Once man achieves this condition---whatever that means, confusion instead arises as to whether the decisions man has taken up to this milestone have been right or wrong. Man suffers from thoughts of how life could have been designed differently if he had been different, had chosen a different profession, another partner had other interests---the mind cannot be satisfied. and can clearly see its shortcomings and strengths.


The arena of consciousness is constantly invaded by invasive forces, forces that knock with their weapons on the barricades of consciousness until they crack, again the consciousness is filled with confusing thoughts, whose only difference is the shift of focus. Indeed, it is people's confidence in identity change that initially attracts the person, but what swallows his up is the ever-hardening grip whose movements slowly but surely pull the individual into total identity darkness. Convinced that the next change is the key to happiness, he goes straight down for each step, and before he realizes it himself, the door behind his has been barred again. How does one even think which traits and characteristics need to be changed? Is it a misleading guess game?!


Inevitably, people feel that their lives---their individual, is an experiment rather than a structured development process. The individual continually exchanges qualities, interests, and abilities in the hope that the newly-formed person will contribute the individual with a higher degree of happiness, and be more esteemed and successful. Surely success and happiness are striving, but how should goals be achieved if man does not know what tools? Should man hunt a bear with a fishing rod? Should man hunt fish with a rifle? To successfully kill a bear with a fishing rod would undoubtedly be an event whose course of events deserves a place in both written and oral history, however, the hunting accident is unlikely for the fishing rod owner.


Man is in need of clear goals that describe "to what" he is to develop into, what qualities and abilities the newly-formed version of his individual should contain. How should unfortunate, miserable people on their own (unconscious or conscious) set goals in a different way than through a misleading guessing game? Forming an individual's identity is lifelong, this process must not be considered short-term, it can have devastating consequences. May man's first step in this lifelong process be to renounce the meaning and value of innate traits, and to realize that many of human traits are static, and spending time trying to change these traits is meaningless---for these traits are completely meaningless. May man's next move be to identify the parts of himself he detests, and clearly articulate why this part is disgusting, and why it needs to change. Miserable people on their own (unconscious or conscious) design goals other than through a misleading guessing game? Forming an individual's identity is lifelong, this process must not be considered short-term, it can have devastating consequences.


The journey towards achieving a symbiosis between human consciousness and identity is lifelong, each person's basic attitude is like the Black Sea. All developments towards achieving a symbiosis allow the sun's light to slowly cut through the surface of the water, and over time illuminate the gloomy nooks and crannies of the sea. Once at the final destination of the journey, the sea is light blue with color changes between yellow and green, its surface peaceful, its nests and tunnels now coral reefs, consciousness and the individual are in symbiosis.

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The Notion of Identity

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