# Don't Calm Me Down Don't calm me down with your gentle words, don't smooth the wrinkles from my brow with the back of your cool hand. Let this fire burn where it will. I have swallowed too many sighs, folded too many truths into my pocket like worn letters I could never send. The dam is cracking. Let it break. You say I'm overwrought, theatrical even— but you've never felt a thousand small silences gather in your chest like stones, never watched yourself disappear in someone else's mirror. So keep your soothing voice, your remedies of reason and restraint. I want to rage. I want to howl at the indifference of the stars. I want to shake this numbness loose like water from my hair. Don't ask me to be graceful now. Don't ask me to smile and nod and pretend the world makes sense. Let me be wild. Let me be wrong. Let me be furious and alive.

Don't calm me down...I know,
Life is both meetings and partings.
It is almost the same with love.
If you step into it, you need courage.
But I'm not brave, I am...
...I'm afraid you're leaving,
I'm afraid it will hurt like hell!

Don't calm me down, you can't understand...
My heart was broken once.
And then I couldn't love.
But I met you—the only man!
Now I have you in my dreams.

Now don't calm me down...Not like that!
I can't be brave. I cry a lot.
I confess, you gave me back my love.
And you have no idea how much it means
for my cracked heart…
The feeling that he feels again!
The feeling that he loves you,
That there is a pulse,
That he has risen!

But I'm very scared as I can understand,
even though you tell me it's in vain,
you will leave tomorrow,
it will hurt, I will suffer from
your absence—my new wound!

Don't calm me down. Not like that...
Now I just want to tell you that
in fact, I have no more hearts!
If you break this...I will be dead!
There is nothing left.