# At Day’s End
At the end of the day, a person must live by their own choice or decision—whether freely made or otherwise. One cannot stand with a foot in two boats. Whoever wishes to pursue a spiritual path must eventually step aside and take a firm stand, staking life and death itself, choosing one side or the other. To remain on both sides is to truly belong to neither. First comes the fixing of direction; only then does the true journey begin.
We must hold our lower nature before the light of God so that it may be transformed, in the end, into our higher nature. This work carries a person through transformation. When a person changes, their thoughts and actions naturally change as well. Without God’s grace, such an ascension is impossible. If this work is not undertaken with complete sincerity, all progress will inevitably be halted. If this foundational task is not completed before anything else, a person cannot establish themselves in peace, joy, and spontaneity by any means whatsoever. The outer, worldly person must be changed—transformed beings are not given to us at the start. Our vow is to consecrate every small action of theirs—our own and others’—into something divine. We must begin with ourselves; the rest follows naturally.
Our aim is to transform the entire current of life at its root. To have prayers for the divine way arising from within only for a time, while the outer person continues to surrender to unholy forces like some helpless, weak being—such a state cannot long endure. Besides, we have seen what ruthless labor such practice demands for success. The demand of the beautiful path is this: inner and outer must become one in seeking truth; whatever comes must be fully embraced. How much longer will the stale shame of that same old defeat be silently borne, day after day! A person carries their own corpse; if they truly wish it, they can breathe life back into that body.
To walk a new path, we must correct our old nature. Such transformation is absolutely necessary. In the heart-temple where God dwells, falsehood and truth cannot coexist. A person must inevitably take a stand on one side or the other. This transformation of nature—this divine metamorphosis—is urgently needed today. This truth must be felt, poured into the very marrow of this life-mind: we must no longer bear that millstone of ancient defeat. An unfelt truth is still truth. Therefore, we must not chase after the relative forms of truth but recognize its universal form. For this, a complete radical change in all the doings of this outer, costumed person is absolutely essential. How can the inner person change if the outer person does not?
Change is no simple matter. A burning, passionate yearning must always be kept alive within! Fire flares up, then dies down again. That old defeat in our nature rises its head with terrible force at some unguarded moment and casts the seeker into the dust. Some defeats, if victory does not come at once, must be immediately cast aside—never carried along with you. Defeat is no friend; it is a teacher. Shame for defeat is something to be abandoned, not something to be borne with you.
For this, infinite patience is required. We must tame our outer person through tremendous perseverance—our entire being must concentrate and stand face to face against the overwhelming power of falsehood. If even one small, fragile corner of the mind harbors consent, offers shelter, then subduing the outer demon becomes impossible.
The mind elevates us to heights and plunges us into depths alike.
Yet there is one truth, steadfast and certain—no matter what obstacles stand in the way—nature can never prevail eternally before the radiant light of truth’s illumination. Life may be torn and wounded again and again in desperate struggle, yet the victory of truth is inevitable. Nature may indeed conquer through its own power, but if that conquest does not follow the path of truth, the chariot of victory cannot travel far.
The aid of our vital force is indispensable as we move forward on life’s journey. If we can subdue the vital—if we can make it serve the way of life—then we escape from countless needless calamities.
Yet subduing the vital is no simple matter. In the ocean of the vital, waves of desire and craving rise and fall ceaselessly. The root cause of all life’s suffering—this is the impurity of the vital; the demands of the vital’s hunger for pleasure seem never to be satisfied. In the ordinary human being’s vital, an eternal incompleteness burns like sacred fire on Ravana’s pyre, the flames licking endlessly upward. This lack of fullness—mankind seems intent on carrying it forward, an eternal burden.
To properly master the vital is impossible through any human effort alone—only the grace of God can bring purity—and on our part there is need for unceasing, fervent prayer and the effort to translate that prayer into action. Infinite patience and perseverance are needed most of all for the transformation of nature. Again and again, cherished dreams shatter before cruel blows. Without the least discouragement, with smiling lips, we must take the vow to create anew even in the very bosom of that ruin. A person’s true strength is revealed only after they have been broken.
The vital cannot be mastered by killing it or strangling it into submission. No one has ever succeeded through this method until now. Rather, the consequences have been disastrous. It is not the crushing of the vital, but the transformation of the vital’s impurity—this is the very mantra of our life! A crushed vital gradually becomes rebellious—it can no longer walk the path it should—and in time it exhausts itself according to natural law.
Let us remain alert and aware of every moment, every movement of the vital each day. Why do we perform this action at the vital’s urging, conduct ourselves this way, fulfill our cravings in that manner—let us recognize each feeling, each emotion one by one, and through that recognition correct them. If this does not happen, the vital loses the vital itself.
Here everything depends upon the ideal—and upon the absolute sincerity of bringing that ideal to flower within life. Remember, the sole purpose of our life is transformation. The pursuit of this transformation is the true pursuit; all else is illusion.
I desire to bring down into our base nature a new power of vision—the dawning of truth-filled consciousness. Let life’s every action be filled with purity. Let every feeling and perception be turned toward consciousness. Let love’s life-giving essence be planted at the heart of the vital’s desires. In place of the body’s all corruption, in place of nature’s degradation, let us establish the divine state—let this body, mind, and vital remain ever open toward the ever-wakeful godhead—let all of creation be enveloped throughout life in a tender reverence, love, and devotion! Let this life-giving existence become an offering dedicated to God. Through all the senses let us perceive and behold our own inner essence everywhere—let our consciousness grow ever more God-turned day by day. The purest form of the human being is the form of God.
Deeply, in every moment, let us feel that the bright, luminous power within our heart presides silently over the assembly of our life. What is absolutely necessary on our part is this: to place unshakeable faith in this supreme power—to surrender the self at the divine lotus feet—to perform all actions of life as worship offered at the feet of God. The offering is a sacred thing; in it alone is the foundational structure of the spiritual pursuit built.
In this way, gradually, the primal bestial life will be transformed into divine life, a great peace from on high will descend and possess this body, mind, and vital—and this earthly existence will become a dwelling place of bliss, a home of the divine.
We shall discover ourselves, we shall come to know our soul in precisely this way one day—this man himself is God. Only when man becomes God does he become safe to himself and to others.