The Boon and the Curse

Thank you for accepting my request. I’m sorry for putting you through so much trouble. Today, opening my Facebook account has been worthwhile.

Worthwhile? What do you mean by all this?

Worthwhile means I had this strong desire to become friends with you on Facebook, and that happened today. This is what I consider fulfillment. Everyone’s fulfillment lies where it does, right!

Oh, I see! Well then! Alright!

In your photos, you look so innocent. I get the feeling you’re a very simple, gentle, soft-hearted person. Are you really like that? You seem very good. In one photo with your friends, everyone is standing with their own attitude, but you’re there so simply. I really liked it. You looked very cute.

Thanks.

Whatever you forget to do, there’s someone who can remind you to do those things, help you complete them, if given permission for this task. She would gladly do it.

Who is she?

There is someone. Just give permission and she’ll come forward, and only then will you know who she is. She’s very eager to do this for you with genuine sincerity.

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You seem to be spending very busy days……. but even in the midst of busyness, even if you forget friends, please don’t forget to take care of yourself and your family members. I know you know and understand much more than I do, but still I shared my feelings. Take care.

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I read your status. Could I know what pain you have that everyone keeps reminding you of? What is it that hurts more when others remind you of it? Could you tell me a bit?

No.

Well, tell me, how tall are you? I saw a photo of you with one of your students (I think her name is Subhadra). She looked so short next to you in the picture that I became curious about your height. I saw another photo with someone else next to you, and she had the same situation!

Why do you need to know?

Can’t I ask without needing a reason? And if I know your height, it won’t make you any shorter—I can assure you of that much. I was curious, so I asked. Both girls looked short in the photos, so I can’t tell if you’re very tall or they’re very short! Another reason is, if I ever meet you, I’ll take a photo. So if my situation turns out like theirs, then……. I mean, just good to know beforehand! Nothing more. A woman’s mind—an ocean of curiosity, I mean, a vast ocean! You understand, don’t you!

5-11.

5-11! That’s why they looked so short! Now I understand. Well, have you ever come to Brahmanbaria? Or do you have any relatives here? Please don’t be annoyed! My interest in knowing about you keeps growing day by day. I want to know so many more things, I want to talk with you……. and so much more! But I control myself with great difficulty. This is the first time in my life I’ve felt this way about someone. Sometimes I think I’m not doing the right thing, because before this I never spent time with anyone, let alone thought about someone this much.

You don’t need to control yourself, tell me, what do you want to say.

Really? But even now, I don’t know why, I’m scared.

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Well, you didn’t tell me whether you’ve ever come to Brahmanbaria, or if you have any relatives here.

I have.

Which part of Brahmanbaria did you come to? When did you come? Please, I’d like to know a bit more in detail.

I don’t remember.

Actually, you know what, ever since I saw your photo, I keep feeling like you’re someone very familiar to me, and that I’ve seen you somewhere. What year did you come? To visit someone’s house? Or for some event?

I don’t remember.

You really don’t remember anything! Then did you come when you were little?

Yes.

You’re something else! Since yesterday I’ve been thinking about what the reason could be for you not remembering, then I thought and figured out maybe you came as a child, and that turned out to be right. Well, if you had told me this yesterday, what would have happened, tell me?

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My love story has begun with you and I’ve forgotten all about studying. Though this story has no name, I can tell it if you want to hear. And another thing, not all girls are like your today’s post. And if the exceptions were mentioned in your post, those who aren’t like that would have been happy. When you keep women happy, God is happy too.

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In your last message to me, you said I don’t need to control myself, tell me what I want to say. Well, can I tell you what’s on my mind?

OK.

I’m telling you. I had decided I would never fall in love in my life. I would marry whoever my parents arranged for me. But now I can’t keep that promise. Do you know why? Only because of you. I don’t know how to say it so you’ll believe me, but I know this much—I’ve become so weak for you that it’s beyond words. I’ve tried so hard to suppress myself, but I keep losing to my own heart, I couldn’t suppress myself. The heart is such a stubborn thing! I don’t know what you’ll think reading my message, but what I’m saying, I’m saying from my heart. I truly love you. I know you have many qualities, abilities, skills, status, everything, and even if I don’t have all that, I have a good heart. All my feelings revolve around you. I want to win your heart with my heart. Please, tell me something!

Sorry!

Could I know the reason?

Sorry!

Since yesterday I’ve thought about this a lot and felt very bad. I felt very small. And I comforted myself thinking that maybe I’m not worthy of you. One request, please don’t think badly of me! If I said something wrong, please forgive me. And most importantly, thank you for letting me speak my heart. If you ever come to Brahmanbaria, please let me know! And take care.

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Hi! How are you?

Good. You?

I’m okay too, in a way. Thanks for replying.

I want to hear your voice. Can I make a call to you, please?

OK. But, first send a message. If I tell you to call, then call.

OK. Thank you.

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Without you, this love wouldn’t have been born! You’re different from what I had imagined. How are you?

Good. You?

I’m okay, good and bad mixed together.

I see. Do you live in Dhaka?

No. I live in Brahmanbaria. I just go there for exams when I have them, that’s all!

Hmm!

Can I ask you something?

OK.

What kind of bride are you looking for?

Why?

I have a wish in my heart.

What wish?

I want to tell you, but I’m afraid of what you’ll think of me if I say it, so I don’t want to say it.

Go ahead and say it!

Never mind about me! You tell me, what kind of bride are you looking for!

Tell me what you were going to say.

I mean, I was going to say, if I knew, I would ask for a chance to place myself there and prepare myself.

Why? You’re saying strange things!

I know it’s strange, but that’s what my heart wants! Why—I don’t know the answer to that. When the heart wants something, what can I do!

Make your heart understand, calm it down. May God help you.

I’ve left everything to God. I don’t know if God will help me or not!

He surely will.

How can you say that with such certainty? I wish God would grant you the ability to understand what I’m trying to say.

What are you trying to say?

I’m trying to say… never mind, I won’t say it now. Tell me, what kind of girl are you looking for?

What do you mean?

If I tell you, it’ll seem even stranger to you, so I won’t say it now.

It’s okay, tell me!

Actually, you don’t know me, that’s the real problem. Still, I’m saying it—I feel something something!

What?

Don’t you understand anything? That’s why I’m saying, may God give you the ability to understand.

The ability to understand what?

People’s hearts—I mean, my heart. The ability to understand my heart. I’m a human being too!

Not all abilities need to be used. Some abilities are better left unused—it keeps things beautiful.

I’m not asking for all abilities, I’m only asking for one ability for you.

Wanting just one thing isn’t good. Ask for more.

Really? Do you believe that? What happens if you ask for just one thing?

You can ask. But this particular wish isn’t right.

Then why did you ask God to help me?

So that you could think of something else…

May I know the reason?

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Victory Day greetings to you.

To you as well.

Please tell me the reason!

I see you like a little sister. You’re like my own sister.

I know why you said that. In the end, you made me your sister! That wasn’t well done.

Why? Can’t you be my sister? I don’t have any younger sisters. I’ve always wanted a little sister!

I know you don’t have a sister. But why must you make me your sister? Is there a shortage of girls in the world to make into sisters? Can’t I be something else?

I really do see you as a sister. Like a little sister. The bond between siblings is the most sacred relationship. It worked out well for me—I got a little sister! Ah! Thank God for such a blessing! If something good can come from a broken engagement, then maybe broken engagements are good!

Oh dear! One person’s curse becomes another’s blessing, and another’s blessing becomes someone’s curse! You keep saying the same thing over and over! When did you start seeing me as a sister? After I said those things to you?

No no, from the day you first showed me your picture. You’re my dear little sister.

The same thing again! Please don’t say it like that, it hurts. (I learned the phrase “it hurts” from you.)

Okay little sister, I won’t say it anymore. You’re my sister. Not ten, not five, just one sister. My sister among sisters!

It’s not fair! You’re having a lot of fun, aren’t you? Laugh, laugh harder! Bring a few more people and laugh if you need to. But it won’t work. I’ve fallen in love with you, and I’ll keep loving you!

Why would I have fun? You’re my little sister. Even thinking about it makes me feel so good. And of course a sister loves her brother!

Oh my God! I don’t know where to go! Should I climb a tree or disappear into the underworld, I can’t figure it out!

Just stay as my little sister, you don’t need to go anywhere else.

If you call me little sister one more time, I’m going to cry, I’m warning you!

Don’t cry, my sister! If you cry, I’ll die!

I won’t cry, fine. But I’m going to complain to your mother, I’m telling you!

What will you complain about? That you’re my little sister—is that a complaint?

Oh beloved! Don’t speak to me thus, for it increases the pain in my heart!

You crazy girl! Nobody calls their brother “beloved”!

Beloved beloved beloved beloved beloved! I’ll say it a hundred times!

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Actually, I can call you brother in one way—if I had a little sister, I would tell her to call you brother. Since I don’t have a little sister, let me call you that on her behalf! What do you say? Are you happy now, beloved?

We are siblings. You’re my little sister, I’m your big brother.

Oh brother! Don’t do this! Sister is in so much pain. (Your little sister said this to you.)

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I really liked something you said. You said that after seeing my picture, you started thinking of me as a sister. Some people’s pictures make you think of them as sisters, and others make you think of them as wives, right, dear brother?… Go read that message in the chat history now, you’ll have a lot of fun. (Just like I’m having now!)

Which message are you talking about, sister?

Really, you’re something else! Check the previous messages, you’ll find it. Hahahahaha

Alright, sister, okay.

O beloved! Why do you address me thus? If I have erred in any way, please forgive me. Please please please, O beloved!

My dear sister, don’t be silly. Stay well. Bye.

My dear Kartik, don’t be so angry! Stay very very very well. Okay? Bye.

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Have you had lunch?

Yes, I did.

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Hi! How are you?

Fine. You?

Formally speaking, I’m fine. If I tell the truth, I’m not.

Why?

Just because!

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Today’s status perfectly matches my heart! I myself have come to your wall thousands of times and keep coming (and maybe will keep coming), I couldn’t count them myself.

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Happy birthday to your younger brother!

Thank you so much!!! Hope you’re fine with everything. The funny thing is, my younger brother has put the gladiola flowers I gave him in the same vase you gifted!

Wow!!! I’m so much happy to hear this! I know my gift is not the best selection for you because you love books more than other things… By the way, how are you with your family members? I really wanted to send a gift this time too, but since I had to convince you so hard to accept the gift last time, I didn’t want to bother you by trying to persuade you again. Many thanks to your brother.

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How are you?

Good. You?

I’m depressed about the job situation. I can neither focus completely on my studies nor stay free. Between these two, I’m doing as well as I can. In this life, I have neither you nor a job. What kind of life is this!

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Happy Birthday to your dear father! Your birthday is today, you’re your father’s eldest child, so in that sense your father’s birthday is today too, because before you existed, he wasn’t a father! Happy birthday to you! And to your father as well!

Thank you so much. Take care.

Welcome and take care too!