Like Pariṇītā

After watching Subhashree's performance in the film 'Parinita,' I fell in love with her, even though I'm a woman myself. You'd never understand how much one person can be loved unless you've seen this movie.

In the film, the girl devotes herself entirely to someone who never returns her love. She never finds the courage to confess her feelings to the man she adores. When she discovers that he loves someone else, the pain is unbearable. But when he suddenly takes his own life without warning, that's when the intensity of Subhashree's selfless love becomes truly apparent.

After his death, she sets aside her own poverty and assumes all responsibility for his mother. At first, I couldn't understand why he killed himself—it was a twist. The company where the girl takes a job, she goes there actually seeking revenge for her beloved's death. It turns out the very woman he loved was responsible for his suicide.

I see myself in this Parinita; I've become someone quite flawed, yet my capacity to feel hasn't been destroyed. I cannot bear to see you suffer. I wish I could place all the world's happiness into your hands. I don't want to watch you in pain; you're someone for whom any sacrifice is possible. If you want, test me—see if I'm truly capable of making every sacrifice for you.

At the office, I carefully maintain such a personality that no one gets the chance to grow close to me. No matter how much I talk, I keep a distance, and my secret life, whatever it may be, can never be understood by anyone... exactly like Parinita... I mingle, yet I never truly merge.