I know how helpless it feels when we can't see any path ahead of us! I was supposed to get lost! From there, I've reached where I am today.
I was in a terrible state in my life! I was in an absolutely marginal position and I was supposed to disappear. I thought about suicide, I tried it! Think about it—when does a person attempt suicide?! When they have nothing left to want or get from life! When they can no longer bear—or don't want to bear—the weight of their own existence!
Yes, I had reached that state, and I was the kind of person nobody ever paid attention to, whose phone calls nobody ever answered, whom nobody ever bothered to have a proper conversation with—that's exactly the kind of person I was. Many people like me, worthless as ash, continue to live in this world! If you want to be well someday, you have to live on that dream!
I know very well what it feels like to be ignored! I know how helpless it feels when we can't see any path ahead! When you stumble and fall, and everyone dismisses you, pushes you away with contempt—I know what that feeling is like in your heart. Yes, I know your pain, and I know where it hurts.
As I was saying, I was supposed to get lost! From there, I've reached where I am today. Through my parents' blessings, the Creator's grace, good fortune, and some effort of my own, I've reached this position. That's why most of what I've received in my life is a bonus—extra! I wasn't supposed to get this, yet I have!
Say you have a job! From that job, your monthly salary is 10 taka, and you're happy getting those 10 taka. In some month, from somewhere, somehow, you earn 15 taka! Yes, an extra 5 taka! Those 5 taka you didn't expect, those 5 taka you don't deserve!
You've received an extra 5 taka. The Creator will quietly watch what you do with those 5 taka. If you consume all those 5 taka or keep them in your pocket, giving nothing to anyone, then the Creator will think—what was the point of giving you these 5 taka! If these 5 taka had been given to someone else instead of you, perhaps some poor people would have gotten money! Then from the next month, your good fortune of those extra 5 taka will be taken away. But if you had given 2.5 taka from those 5 taka to people, then you'd have 2.5 taka profit in your plus-minus! Next month, another 2.5 taka profit.
Then perhaps the Creator would give you another 2 taka the following month! Seventeen taka total! 3.5 taka profit in your plus-minus! This would continue! Charity increases wealth.
That good fortune—the fortune you weren't supposed to receive—give some of it to people without expecting anything in return. You'll be well. Check for yourself. Just seeing those people's faces will make you feel good. When those people's prayers reach the Creator, the Creator will keep you well. Believe it or not, these things happen.
I believe that most of the good fortune I've received is a bonus. If I don't help some people get a bit of that, that good fortune will be taken away from me. Out of that fear, I work for people without payment. And I truly enjoy speaking! When I see that someone is able to do something in life after hearing my words, that someone is doing something good, there's no harm to me in that!
Not only is there no harm, but there's gain! What kind of gain? I get to see some smiling faces! I get to see some contented people! This makes me happy. I become happy seeing others happy. That's why I do this work.
Which aspect of myself do I like best? The aspect of myself that I like most is my writer-self. This is exactly how I evaluate my life: if I can ever become a writer, if I can ever write something truly good, that day would be the happiest day of my life. If before death I see that I'm introduced as a writer, if I ever receive recognition as a writer, that would be the most joyful thing for me.
Even if I don't get that, there's no sadness. I write mainly for my own joy. I don't worry about who reads and who doesn't. And most people don't read my writing anyway—only a few people read it. Yes, just a handful of people. Most give likes and comments for no reason...wow, super! The reason is that I came first in the BCS exam. If I hadn't come first in the BCS exam, not so many people would read my writing, not so many would like and comment—they wouldn't do anything. That's the truth.
They probably think, this guy came first in BCS, and I'm going to take the BCS exam too! Or they think, if I give a like on Sushanta brother's status, maybe through that blessing(!) I can pass the preliminary, so what's the harm! Something like that! Very few people like and comment after actually reading my writing. Yes, some do, of course. I have some good readers. I recognize them, I understand. Then there are many who neither like nor comment—they read silently. Yes, there are many silent readers too. I maintain gratitude and respect for them.
Many people tell me, what you're writing is nothing, it's all trash...this and that! I politely tell them, I didn't appoint you as a judge. I know I'm writing trash, I know my writings amount to nothing. I have no problem with that! What's your problem? If you don't like it, don't read my writing, don't come to my wall. Please don't live so shamelessly!
My philosophy is very simple. Pablo Picasso painted about fifty thousand pictures. And the Picasso paintings we recognize number at most one hundred! Out of his fifty thousand paintings, we recognize only about a hundred. Only those have survived, exist in our minds. The rest are gone!
In exactly the same way, if even one percent of whatever I write survives, even if the remaining ninety-nine percent is garbage, there's no problem with that. I don't know which one percent will survive! In hope of that one percent, I'm trying to work one hundred percent. Nothing more.
Come, let's all live one hundred percent in hope of one percent!
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