Tukus Takus, Takus Tukus

 
My little sweet darling!
It's been so long since I've written to you. How are you?
What, you're wondering why I'm calling you darling again...! Isn't that so?
What can I do, tell me! Whenever you come into my thoughts,
tremble in my neurons, my heart says,
just open the door and see! Outside is your beloved self...!
...and I end up calling you darling again!
So what if I did, hmm? Good for me! I'll call you more!
Darling darling! Darling sweetness! Sweet darling! Count them—ten more times! Let's see what you'll do about it?


You know, after you left...
even the garden wrapped in the bluish shadows of morning glories,
the weeds have taken over! Right before my eyes, each bud
falls to earth's breast before it can bloom!


Seeing this made me so angry...you know,
I scolded them all so harshly! They're so strange!
I anoint them daily with morning's soft light,
shield them from gusting winds, wrap myself in their embrace,...still I,
when moonlight spills at night, I'm their companion—that's me too,
I've crafted so many poems to recite to them,
and they...when you left,...became so withered in that sorrow! They made me a stranger!
Hey, why are they like this? Why don't they want me? Tell me right now! You little rascal!


I know they love you.
This is pure, untainted love of the heart!
There's no mystery here, no pretense either.
One who loves you...
like a spring's clear water, water before which
you can see your own face exactly as it is,...
however much they torment, however much they neglect,...I bear it all with a smile.


Why are you laughing so much, my darling?
I'm not like that, you know! I never lovingly swallow anyone's leftovers!
Who made me this way then? No one else, only you! Do you understand, darling?
...I said it right to your face! With a smack! Now tell me, how does it feel?
However it feels, I did well to say it! Do you have something to say?
Watch out! Don't you say a word! If you open your mouth now,
I'll make you swallow ten cardamom pods one by one! Then you'll know the fun!


You're calling me wild cat in your mind! Troublesome bird! And so much more...!
Go ahead and say it! Yes, you're right, I am exactly all of that!
I live only to torment you! Oh, my blessed darling!


Do I really chatter terribly? Yak-yak-yak, blah-blah-blah...do I do this all the time?
Do I torment too much? Do I ask such questions day and night that have no answers?
I know I do all this! Of course I do! You're my whole darling sweetheart!


You know, since you left...today makes sixty-two days!
How this imprisoned life passes, have you ever wondered?
How each moment ends now without you...
it doesn't even occur to you to know! How can you stay so silent?
Stay if you want! I'm staying quiet too,...I will, just watch!


On diary pages, resentment accumulates...
by that hillside, love only raises waves...
and, one by one they crash down...I don't stop them, let them fall till death comes...


Today after so long, how much nonsense I've babbled!...very annoyed?
All right, dear...I'll lock my lips for now!
One last thing!
To float with you in a world-ocean of happiness,
even today I've carefully kept hope locked in my chest!
My blessed darling, when will you return?