Thoughts in Bonsai: Sixty-Five

1. There is a very subtle difference between faith and freedom from illusion.
This subtle difference alone is enough to make heaven and hell one!

2. I need a break—from love.

3. One must converse with the world...through silences, through coincidental events, through forgotten memories, through the body of clouds, through the heart's contradictions.

4. Step out from how you know me
and speak with me; otherwise I'm getting irritated.

5. Once you left me, thinking me characterless.
Today I am truly characterless. Then why do you want to return?

Where was your real objection, after all?
Character? Or poverty?

6. What I once could never forgive,
today I don't even think about, purely for the sake of peace.

7. Dear heart, don't leave, stay with me.
Perhaps I can't keep you well today,
but someday I will. Stay with me.

8. I keep searching for love;
the moment I find even a little, I flee from there!

9. Sitting quietly and peacefully in one's own room, minding one's own business without interfering in others'...what could be a more wonderful life than this!

10. I live in a world that is not mine.
I write to escape this fear of living.

11. If I want you,
will you think me childish?

12. Sometimes I punish myself rather than allow myself forgiveness.
When the same mistake is repeated again and again, it stops being a mistake and becomes a crime.

13. I couldn't find the path no matter what!
One day the path itself found me.

14. Those who can't stand you at all
keep closer watch on your movements
than anyone else, by tolerating and tolerating.

15. - Has it gotten a little easier?
- Somewhat...

- Does it still hurt?
- Every single moment!

16. - I love you.
- But you don't even know me!
- If people can hate without reason, why should I need a reason to love?

17. Dear heart, I remember everything.
Once, in trying to keep yourself well,
you kept me in great pain.

18. When rereading a book already read, one can return to that earlier time.

19. I don't want to be the person you have found.
I want to be the person you are still searching for.

20. We inspire precisely those people
who always pretend not to see us.