Thought's Bonsai: Fifty-Five

1. What good would blaming you do anyway!
You only did what could be expected of you!
The fault is mine for going to you at all!

2. I am a woman.
I have learned
never to salute those who cause me pain.
Fare well.

3. Now I pretend to trust everyone,
but trust no one at all.
Thank you for that.

4. Remember,
your words
can bloom like roses in a garden,
or burn down an entire forest!

5. Yesterday you knew how weak I was!
Today I know how much of my strength you never saw!

6. You are that pain of mine
from which I myself never wanted to be free.

7. If you wish to reach close to my heart,
look for my wounds.

8. Marry the one
with whom being feels like being alive!

9. I thought long and hard about you,
only to realize there's nothing to think about!

10. Do you want the mountain while pushing away its solitude?
You'd better stay in the plains!

11. I suffered even while waiting.
I suffered by waiting itself.

12. The day I didn't cry,
had I cried then, I wouldn't have to cry so much today.

13. Wanting to cry but being unable to... is there any uglier face of sorrow?

14. That I'm still alive today—
perhaps there's only one reason:
I can still remember you.

15. You're not beside me; everyone else is.
That's why I want no one beside me.

16. Rather than those old memories,
it's the new ones that torment me more—the ones where you're absent.

17. The day you said I'd amount to nothing,
since then I've been searching for someone
who'll say you were wrong.

18. You're the one who changed me!
Now you ought to remember me.

19. Don't call me sick.
You found me healthy.

20. This life I still live after yesterday,
this span of years is not mine alone—
it could serve someone else's purpose too!