The Way I Live Today

  
 Someday I would reach you.
 I lived believing this. Today I think like this.
  
 I'm beginning to know you now, little by little.
 To know you completely I'd need to spend
 a whole lifetime with you—thinking this, I live today.
  
 Now when I can think half my life is over,
 that thought too comes only because you exist.
 Before you came into this life, I had assumed
 the remaining days could probably be counted on my fingers.
  
 All my afternoon sunlight had grown tender,
 because you came that sunlight blazes fierce again.
  
 However unargumentative I am as a person,
 I'm far more fatalistic than that.
 ...At least, I used to be.
  
 After you came I've quarreled with fate,
 seeing me like this even a few innocent trees today
 stare in wonder. They've never seen me this way before.
  
 Now I have only one endeavor—to remain in life.
 I never thought someone ineffectual like me
 would need to learn to stand. The sky above me and
 the earth below both appear before me today in different forms.
  
 Some darkness cracks,
 some light opens wider.
 Now I only want to be...
  
 Though all the world's sadness seems trivial next to tears,
 some tears remain that keep us alive by their very presence.
 I now know the exact whereabouts of those particular tears.
  
 Before you came I used to wait for death.
 Because you've come, today I wait to live even the next moment.
  
 Beloved, thank you.