You have told me, time and again, that I should argue only with you, that I must not squander myself in futile disputation, forgetting what you have taught me.
When you showed yourself to me and granted me the right to speak with you, why then should I go seeking instruction elsewhere? Yet you yourself keep sending me to others. You say, through that path... I cannot grasp all truth without walking the road of counsel and books. That is why I go to people.
I know this is merely your strategy. No human being can enter the depths of my heart—only you dwell there. Let me read books, let me hear what people say, but in the end, it is you who must teach. Only you can illumine this mind. Yet of late, what you have taught me has brought both joy and great suffering.
People do not know your truth, have not seen you, are not even eager to see you, and yet they come to speak of you. Page after page, chapter upon chapter, they discourse on you—and yet clarify nothing. They speak in contradiction, understand without understanding, knowingly utter what is incongruous.
Why do they do this? For money? For reputation? One who knows you not, understands you not, does not even attempt to grasp you—why does he speak so much about you? Let them speak. I pray only this: let me not be lost in their words. Let the treasure I have seen remain always before my eyes; never let it slip from my hands. I wish to show you to others by having seen you myself. To make them hold you, make them grasp you, make them love you as I do. I thought my work was finished, but I see it is not. My very understanding remains incomplete. What comes after—showing, grasping, making love—has scarcely begun.
First let me see well, grasp well, love well; then perhaps I need say little more. When one speaks from seeing, people will be moved to seek what is seen. When one speaks from grasping, people will desire to grasp. And when one speaks from love, that speech will carry a fragrance that others cannot help but receive.
But I have achieved none of this. When I say, "I am seeing," people do not truly believe that I see. What fault is it of theirs? My own words carry no weight even to myself. My seeing is so meager, so fleeting, that even I am not satisfied by it. That seeing does not alter the current of my mind, the rhythm of my life. And yet—how can I speak if I have not seen?
You are appearing before me as life itself—this is no longer imagination of mine. Long ago you taught me the difference between imagination and manifestation. Yet this flash of lightning, this instantaneous brilliance—make it endure. Do not remain merely the lightning of the sky, but become the steady glow in my home. Not in the blink of an eye alone, but in steady gaze, in work, in the household and beyond... remain as an unwavering light, and only then will my own heart understand, and others too will comprehend.