The Twilight of Rejection

: From today onward, we will never speak again.
: Is this distance meant to keep you well?
: I am not well, Neer.
: I won't ask why... that twilight hour when you searched my chest like a madwoman in your tender desperation—has it ended, Tithi?
: Perhaps... because I came close, staying away has become mandatory today.
: I have watched you destroy yourself in secret, amid crowds of deep sighs; seen you break apart with cold, wet eyes, in messy resentment.
: None of that was false... only the timing was false.
: Why do you want to make everything false, Tithi?
: Whatever I was, it was insignificant... to you it's nothing but a heap of worthless garbage.
: I never made such calculations... only my soul knew how precious you are to me. Don't wound yourself this way.
: I am submerged in the darkness of inability to reach any of your attainments.
: Hold your breath in the depths of my chest a little longer, Tithi.
: Even after this, will you ask me to stay? 'One cannot say, perhaps...' Don't say anything... I want to leave taking responsibility for my own helplessness.
: I have lost the mental strength to bear your rejection.
: You yourself once said you would remain only as 'the one who stays' and guard my body.
: Did you ever love me, Neer? Answer me.
: Don't search for answers to every question.

: Even giving you my everything, I cannot protect you... I am too fragile. With just a small blow from you, I am running recklessly.
: I feel so out of place before you.
: Don't leave only the traces of your desolate sighs in my chest, Tithi.
: I cannot give you anything more... why do you keep reminding me of my inadequacy?
: And why do you keep letting your breath touch my body?
: What do you gain by keeping me alive this way?
: You must live, Tithi. I will keep you alive.
: Look into my eyes—what melancholy clouds you are busy clearing!
: I cannot give this burden to anyone else but you.

: Don't embrace death this way, Tithi.
: I am yours, yours alone... I have guarded you in the depths of my chest every day.
: Neer...
: Don't cry, Tithi.
: Keep the fierce longing of your love alive on your lips.
: I can't anymore... let me go.