The severing of knots, the fierce collision

 
I find you beautiful,
my heart wants to love you,
I long for your company,
your creations enchant me,
...this is why I come to you.


I have never walked alongside anyone,
never once admitted that I love someone,
to those who wanted me, I politely explained my limitations.


Whenever affection stirred in me, I restrained it.
To admit I love you,
to journey with you mentally and physically—
I never really thought about these things.


Now these matters sometimes trouble me deeply.
I don't know what destination awaits us together.
I've never stopped to consider this.


You have a separate life of your own,
thinking of this makes me shrink inward.
I begin to feel I'm doing something wrong, that somewhere a mistake is being made!
Then the fear of losing you overwhelms me.


What you do, what you have or don't have, where you stand—
these have never been my concern.
What kind of person you are
is all I try to understand.


Apart from loving you, I truly have no other needs,
for surviving, for living, I require very little.
Because I have learned to live without so many, many things.


I won't hesitate to say—I'm afraid of you. Still! I don't know why.


I never had any personal dreams.
I've seen how people love to shatter dreams.
Why they do it, I don't know. But that's how I've always seen people.
So sometimes I grow uncertain about you.


You too need to know me more, understand me better.
There's no reason to trust and love me so easily.
Take your time, I'm here.
If you suffer later because of me, I'll feel like a criminal.


I don't know if I've saddened your heart.
Just know this—I love you fiercely,
even if I neglect many things about myself,
I will never neglect anything about you.
Never, not ever.