Everywhere the word 'love' is scattered about, yet love itself is so terribly absent! Forgive me, I will never be able to forget you! It's simply impossible!
And yet, that I could have you in my own way — that too is impossible. To say that having you close for those few moments was my mistake — that too is never possible! You are not some limb of my body that has turned gangrenous, to be cut away and discarded! You are my life, my existence, my soul — no matter how many times I try to kill it, I will fail again and again!
But yes, I can fulfill your wish. I can stay away without troubling you in any way!
What kind of person are you? Even today I search for the scent of your skin on my clothes, my body, in my feelings — eyes closed! The moment I open them, everything feels empty. Inside I'm burning to ash; I can't make anyone understand this agony of burning! This reckless pain is eating me away, bite by bite!
Only I know this — I am not well. Because I hold you clasped in every vein of my body, in my breath, in my feelings, like light and shadow.
Do you know what the most amusing thing is? You will never understand with what fierce desire to have you I walked away from you! The day you find out, perhaps I won't even exist anymore!
Fire burns only one thing and loves to burn it — the human heart! How terrible the intensity of the heart's burning, how unbearable the blazing arrows of that pain — now I understand!
The fire of naked flesh is terrifying!
What is wrong, what is right — I cannot judge! Through you I found the existence of my own identity, the colorless found color, the formless found shape!
I forgot the scent of my own contradictions and found the scent of your skin! Not hearing the sound of your breathing — it hurts so terribly much!