Reflection: Four Hundred Fourteen
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January 27, 2011
Brother Sushanta,
You’ve been finally selected for
admission into the MBA Program of IBA, Dhaka University……..This is a great
news, Indeed!!!!
You Did It!!! First you dreamed it,
then believed it — It’s not surprising you achieved it! Congratulations my dear
brother!!!
Best Regards,
: Dear Apu & Bhaiya,
I feel so happy finding you both on
my wall. Your gorgeous presence beside me is always inspiring. Dreaming and
believing together just make the picture, ‘something’ more is needed to see
that picture drawn. Thanks a lot for providing me with that ‘something’. I
sincerely want you to remain by my side now and forever. Hope I won’t be
disappointed.
Take care.
With love,
Your younger brother Sushanta.
: We will always be by your side, no
matter what, if you need us, we will be here for you. You can always count on
us to be there for you. Nothing about that will ever change. we are here to
help the best we can. And we won’t let you down on purpose.
Stay well brother. Keep your sunny
days up all the time.
Best Wishes,
Apu And Family.
: Your words always make me feel
better, think better and act better. Are you coming to Bangladesh? Please let
me know before you come here. I’ll meet you and Bhaiya. I’m really lucky to
discover you both in Facebook. Two thumbs up for Facebook! Hats off to Mark
Zuckerberg!!
: If I could pick the adorable
brother, I would pick you!!!
Sometimes being a brother is even
better than being a superhero. A brother is a friend given by nature. Being
sister and brother means being there for each other. I’ve been glad to have a
brother like you.
You’re my pal, my buddy and my good
friend too.
And it means a lot having a brother
like you.
: Your words of kindness are softer
than the finest silken cloth, your affection and care make me happy being here.
You’re one of those few who are always gorgeous to me. Thank you for what
you’re. Thank you for what you aren’t.
February 3, 2011
: Sorry Sush…… for my
delay…… yeah there are many CDs……. I LOVE Budda Bar……. the whole
collection…….. and of course, KARUNESH is awesome
: My classes commence from the 7th
instant. I’m still too lazy to start them. I’ve the phobia of academic
schooling, you know! Hope this time they’ll spare me from learning stupid
things. I love challenges. I love decision-making (though I’m the most
indecisive person my friends have ever seen….lol)……. I like mastering
managerial skills. I like the formal modes of corporate world. Let’s wait and
see how I meet things there……… The problem is, I like every good thing as
long as I don’t have to do it…….. Hmm…….. I don’t think I’m uniquely
unique in this case! Hahahaha……… Take care, didi.
February 5, 2011
: I heard another wonderful thing today…….
“Right hand, left hand, and excuse…….I don’t like people with these three hands. There should be only two hands………right hand and left hand.”….
February 9, 2011
: Hey bro, whazzup? How is your IBA
life? I hope you surely enjoying the MBA courses of IBA. Any subject, any
problem you face, tell me. I’ll help as much as possible,
whether academic or matters of the heart, just ask for tips!…lolz
: Hello brother, our classes
commenced just from yesterday. Classes are so good till now as today and
yesterday there were just introductory classes. I wish classes were such for
the rest of the course. SIGH!!
The first semester will cover five
foundation courses. They are: Management of Organisation, Financial Accounting,
Legal Environment of Business, Managerial Communication & Business
Mathematics……… Dost, the last one attracted me most. The first 4 courses
sound new to me as I was not fully in that stream, you know. Hopefully, they’ll
appear better before me.
I’ve not faced any problems
regarding academic matters or girls, because I’ve not started reading books yet
and troubles have not, sadly enough, ensued about girls….lol
Anyway, I know about your ‘high
mastery’ on these two issues. And, I’ll go for your suggestions whenever
required, for sure!!
How are you? What about your
business? Take care, dost.
: Happy to hear from u. What
impressed me the most is that you are enjoying your MBA courses. That’s really
important. If you don’t enjoy whatever you are doing, life becomes stressed.
Keep it up. I am quite sure you’ll stand one of the top 3 students in the war
of brilliance and excellence. You just need to be focused more in academic
courses than in girls…lolz. Just kidding.
Anyways, as you always have been shy
about girls, you’ll continue the same old track. Maybe the environment of Dhaka
will help you in this regard to remove your shyness…lolz. I hope someday we
will discover your secrets and undoubtedly put our remark that Sushanta was a
Chupa Rustam and he kept us in darkness (regarding his affairs with girls) and
made us fool throughout these years…lolz
Maybe you’ll become my Love Guru
: How can a person who is still in
darkness about some topic can intentionally keep his friends in darkness
regarding the same topic?…….. I was hardly in a good academic standing in
my Honours course like you, because I never enjoyed my engineering course. You
always rocked the campus and you’re still on the same track in your working
arena. I hope you’ll be rocking forever in future too. Yes, it’s what I often
tell others about you. And, I know it’s never an exaggeration.
I’ll stay in Chittagong from the
next Tuesday to Saturday. I’ve a break of my classes. Hope to meet you at that
time.
Take care of yourself and my
‘boudi’.
Reflection: Four Hundred and Fifteen
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February 10, 2011
My esteemed friends, please share
the names of at least 2 books that, you think, can help someone become
successful by changing his/her attitude and style of thinking.
DK Singh: Can books or any person
change the attitude of another person so easily? Husband & wife keep
trying, to change the attitude of spouse, for the whole life………and how
many succeed is anybody’s guess.
……… That’s true!! And so, they
often say, “Better to study oneself than to study
books.”………….. I keep trying following some principles and
observing how they work or don’t. Nevertheless, this approach, some books are
really thought-provoking and they really matter in a person’s life. The arena
of my thoughts is hardly broader than that of my esteemed friends. So, I
sincerely asked for their help.
February 10, 2011
Hi bro……… How’s going on your
study? Plz keep in touch….
………. My session is 2010-2011.
(We started our classes from the 7th instant.) Ours is a 4-semester system.
It’s hoped to be completed in 2 years.
Thank you for your query about me.
Hope you’re getting on well along with your family and work. Take care.
February 13, 2011
If only the girls knew how beautiful they looked in sarees! Even the boys in Punjabis seemed strangely handsome!………We MBA students were the only ones looking ordinary!…………Is this how the rest of our IBA life will pass by?
February 19, 2011
Tendulkar is OUT!!
We just want Bangladesh to play
well. It matters little whether we win or not, but how we play matters. Hope
Bangladesh will continue playing well as they’re doing right now.
February 19, 2011
My Bangladesh rocks!!
February 19, 2011
Our players tried their best. That’s
what we want from them. Hope we’ll win the next matches. Good Luck Bangladesh
India has not been this ‘India’
overnight. It took time. We’re improving ourselves in every match. As we’re so
poor, we lack many opportunities that players of others countries are enjoying.
One day we also will win the World Cup. Better days are not far to seek.
My dear Bangladesh rocks!!
The GAME is not over yet!! We’ve
other matches to play! Yes, we’ve proved that we can. Just think, if our
bowlers could perform just in their usual manner, the result could be
different. The decision to field first was not a good decision, I think. We
just have to believe that we can win. Only then, we can be very close to
victory!! India is not an easy opponent. Mind it. We must be happy with the
score. 300 could be better, but we’re not frustrated at all. Let’s wait and see
what happens next.
There’s always a Shewag in every
team. Not always he becomes that ‘Shewag’. That’s what we call the
unpredictable nature of game. Think about the start of our team. We scored 50
faster than India. Isn’t it great? The senior most player of our team is only
28! Yet, we tried to show the professional fury.
Stories will always tell us about
the heroism of the hunters till the tigers don’t learn how to write. Till then,
we’ve to wait.
February 21, 2011
: I know you are BIG on
cricket….so having fun???? the opening I heard had mixed reviews……. but
more than half Indians here are stuck to their TV sets. In fact the “dish
network” had trouble in the transmission and they got sooo many calls that
their phone system collapsed!! yeah……. proud moment for Indian Americans
LOL to have community large enough to have done that….
: Indian Americans are proud of
their Indian American phone system! Huh! Hahahahaha
How are you, didi? What about your
backache? I’m enjoying my time with family. I’ve been on a vacation since last
Tuesday. My classes restart from the next Wednesday. What are you doing now?
February 21, 2011
: cute pix of you and the
baby……. you and the baby look precious!!!
: That baby is my niece. She is so
cute! I like playing with kids.
: and you look very natural……
you look very nice…… you know women really fall for men who can handle
babies really well.
: Fall in love……. Handle babies
well…….. Is it going to be a contract, anyway?!….lol
February 24, 2011
I don’t know much about cricket but
our ‘desi radio” jockeys have it…… they were sharing this information
“Kapil dev scored an unbeaten
175 against Zimbabwe in 1983 world cup……his performance was a real turnaround
for India at the match……sadly the match was not covered on TV nor is there
any video recording of this great innings, because of a strike by technical
workers”
WHAT A LOSS OF RECORDED
HISTORY!!!!!!!! Wow this was life without camera phones and FB!!!!! can’t
imagine this now…….. 400 million fans now would have captured it and put it
on FB……. LOL…… sooo do you have the FEVER!!! the Cricket fever that
seem to have swept many nations……. get well soon or perhaps I should
say……. enjoy your fever!!!!!!!!!!
: I’m caught in a fever that will last
as long as I allow it to, and it brings no harm. History records events mostly
so they may repeat themselves! Just look around—how many new Kapil Devs emerge,
yet we still revere him for teaching us what it means to be that charismatic
‘Dev’! Nothing is truly lost, nothing truly gained—only our thinking or lack
thereof makes it seem so. What matters is how we accept or reject these things.
Facebook users certainly missed that magnificent moment, but only because
certain forces prevented its capture. Yes, chaos always ensues! Life is never
fair! Some people receive far more than they desire, while others miss most of
what they deserve. I cannot make sense of this equation and often find myself
calling it destiny. I’ve told you this before: Que sera, que sera!!
Didi, how are you now? What are you
busy with now? Hospitalizing forever…….. Right? I’m a bit disturbed with
some matters. I’m trying to cope up with them. Hope I’ll be able to make things
better for me.
Take care.
Reflection: Four Hundred Sixteen
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February 25, 2011
My Bangladesh ROCKS!!
I’m ready to believe or disbelieve
anything for YOU, my Bangladesh, my Mother.
Two thumbs up for our players!!
Miracles happen always!! Just make a
wish and sincerely believe it and work for it!! The laws of attraction start
working and divine blessings pour on you in some unknowing forms…….. I can
tell you this from the experience of my life……….
Nothing stirs me more than my
country and countrymen.
The drunken masters are masters,
after all! Yes, being the masters matters. Every moment you live king size,
counts! The moment we win is thousand times precious than the years we’ve wait
to meet that moment. And, the winners will always write the history. That part
of the past we know, that part of the present we’ll know ever. The hunter will
always be a hero till the lion learns how to write………
We won the match, they lost. And,
that’s true. Victory speaks out for itself! Let’s be a part of it and hope for
the best!
Good Luck Bangladesh!! Wish You A
Happy Ending.
February 26, 2011
: This photo looks too serious! Take off your glasses and smile for the camera.
: Masima,
this photo has been there for a long time,
I just don’t feel like changing it. There are other photos on Facebook too. Which one should I use? Give me a suggestion,
please!
You’re doing well, aren’t you?
Everyone at home is fine, I’m sure!……..Take care, Masima.
March 2, 2011
Hats off to K O’Brien!!
Yes!! The great victory comes at
last!! Ireland really deserves it!!……. And, if it’s true, my Bangladesh
must deserve better. …….. No doubt about it!!!
Bangladesh defeated Ireland……..
Ireland defeated England……. The match between England and India was
tied…….. India is now considered No. 1 team in this World Cup…..
Quest??
Our players can make miracles happen
only if they believe in their worth and work with their fullest commitment.
Yes brothers, it’s true that the
task of stepping on the second sound has become a bit difficult. Let’s not lose
our good hopes……… Que sera, que sera (What will be, will be)………..
Hope our tigers will make things better for us.
March 4, 2011
Some of my friends have asked me
through inbox, ” Do you still support your Bangladesh cricket team?”
I’ve just answered, “YES”…….. Can I ever call another beautiful
woman Mother only because my own Mother is ugly?…….. NO!! NEVER!!……..
Better days must come, I believe!!
I’m humbly requesting all of my
Bangladeshi Facebook friends not to say anything if you don’t have something
nice to say about Bangladesh……… I really do mean it!!……… Please
stop this nuisance!!
………….I may be angry with my mother for her mistakes, I might even scold her! But that doesn’t mean this deep anguish, this bleeding in my heart, should touch others in such a way that they dare to pity me or my mother, to humiliate us!!
Bangladesh is still so young……….think about it, our most senior player is only 28!! I admit, they didn’t play well today, made many mistakes, caused us pain…………….but they are our brothers, I might slap a brother once or twice………there’s nothing wrong with that, but never in front of others!!!!!!!!!!!
Just think, not long ago during the Football World Cup we flew Brazil-Argentina flags on our rooftop. Brother, we didn’t even play there!!………..Yet consider, we are the host nation of this Cricket World Cup!…………But where? I hardly saw any Bangladesh flags flying anywhere!………… We still have so much to learn!!
Let’s raise our voices together for
Bangladesh, only for our Bangladesh!!
Right or wrong, this is my
motherland, my mother!! I owe to her for every drop of my blood!!
…………Brother, we can’t be so disheartened, we still have to play our next matches, don’t we? This is the truth!! They lose, we don’t want it any more than they do……….. I understand everything, my temper gets quite bad too, yet I want to see Bangladesh do something good……………This is love………”discipline suits only those who care………”……………… Still I know, when someone says anything wrong about my country, I lose my head, blood rushes to my brain!!
What can I do, tell me! I love her!
Whether we speak well or ill…………whatever we say,
in our hearts we truly want this:
let them play well!…………..When you spit upward, it falls back on you, doesn’t it?…………Better then to stand a little aside from them,
let them turn around this time—–that’s what we want!………….. Seeing all that offensive talk on social networking sites makes me feel utterly helpless,
I feel
as if we’ll never manage it again…………What good will come of this?
Our image crisis will only worsen………..Stay well.
March 6, 2011
Heyy………..!!! Hello!! How are
you? How is everything going on? I’m very sorry for responding late. The whole
day long I was too busy to log on to Facebook. Thank you for this wall post.
Take care.
March 7, 2011
Clearance SALE!! Clearance SALE!!
You’re offered attractive DISCOUNTS on all products at my gift-shop ‘DOVANA’!!
Offer valid till stocks last. Interested friends are requested to check my
profile info for the items we deal in & the address of DOVANA. Thanks.
…….. Not all discounted things
have the charm of being liked whatever they’re…….. You better choose yours.
……..As long as products remain in stock. I think I’ll shut down the gift shop,
so I’m selling products at my purchasing price…….How are your studies going?
…….. There’s a brief list
available in my profile info page.
…….. Que sera, que sera (What
will be, will be)………. Things are that they’re, things will be that
they’ll be……..so goes on life. We can never change the course. It’s always
destined!
…….. But for these two
treasures, my life would have been shaped differently. While seeing, we usually
think that what we’re seeing, is all that can be seen. There’s always left more
that’s beyond our imagination. My problem was, I mistakenly took the first step
for the frontier and decided to be where I was not supposed to be. I often made
a confusion between my ambition and power. Such a confusion hardly goes
unpunished and, in my case, it did so. Three precious years lapsed from my life
just in a reverie of wealth. My dreams proved to be treacherous!!………
Sigh….!!
…….. I’ve already closed P@ul’s,
I’m shutting down Dovana. Nothing can be done, brother. The demands of time force me to do this. I pray
your exams go well.
……… You’re absolutely right, those days were wonderful! I often suffer from nostalgia,
I remember you all so much. Stay well, all of you. May all your exams go well,
this blessing remains.
……..there’s nothing to be done,
brother, I have to do just that. If anyone you know is interested, let me know……….which is real,
and which is mirage; it’s quite difficult to tell! Many can’t understand it,
I couldn’t either. I’m still spinning in that uncertainty. Do you remember those days at CUET?
I remember them vividly,
fondly. Pray for me. Stay well, stay beautiful.
Reflection: Four Hundred Seventeen
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March 10, 2011
: Hi bro…how’s life going on?
: Hello brother! Thank you so much
for your wall-post. I’m fine……… passing busy days with assignment,
presentation and classes. How are you? How is your life going on? Your caring
attitude is really impressive. Take care, brother.
March 11, 2011
Miracles happen when you believe!!
Hundreds of my brothers are in the street!! They’re dancing, shouting like
children!! I’m one of them!! That’s my Bangladesh!! The whole world has heard
the roar of our tigers!! Hats off to you, my brothers!! I’ll be always waiting
to dance for you, my Bangladesh, my mother!! We’re your silly children!!
Now I’m dancing just like a MAD!! I
don’t know what makes me do so. I don’t even bother to know what makes me do
so!! I’m now dancing like a crazy with my brothers, and it’s now worship for
me!!!
I salute you, my country, my
mother!!
We’re burning wood, paper, bamboo
with kerosine. We’re dancing on fire!! Really hard to believe for me……. I’m
now dancing on fire!! Amazingly, none of us is getting hurt!!
Even FIRE dare not touch the FLAME
burning inside our soul!!
We’re shouting……. BANGLADESH!
BANGLADESH!! BANGLADESH!!!
Friends………….I just returned
home a while ago. My voice has broken,
I can’t speak,
and yet I still feel like shouting a little more! My sandals are torn,
my pants burnt across much of the lower portion! My head is dizzy, my eyes heavy with sleep;
but how strange, I don’t feel the least bit tired!
This extraordinary, uncommercial love—who taught it to me? Perhaps it doesn’t quite suit someone decorated like me! Let it not suit, what’s the harm?
I’ve quite adapted to it! I’m not wealthy enough to buy this joy!
Is anyone truly that wealthy?
March 14, 2011
Ireland……. England……. And
now……. Netherlands!! Yessss!! We’ve beaten all the three European LANDs of
Group B!! Our tigers win Europe!!! Hats off!!! What’s next? South Africa!! I
just can’t wait for that BIG match!!!
I think our players have every skill to beat South Africa. What they’ve to do is to show their skill. No miracles need to happen. They’re already worth the victory. A blend of confidence and skill makes things better in the battlefield…….. Winning Europe is not winning the rest, but it has showed us how to win the rest. Our overall team performance needs to be developed more to carry the day against South Africa. I hope our players will show their fullest capability on the Saturday’s match. It’s possible when they can bridge the narrow gap between CONFIDENCE and SUCCESS……. Let’s keep our fingers crossed for that!!
March 16, 2011
: Bhaia, how are you?
: Sony, I’m fine. Thanks. How are you? What about your studies?…….. Brother, I’m very sorry for not replying your message. I got engaged with some tasks at that time and later forgot to leave you a reply.
March 16, 2011
: Sir, greetings. Are you well?
: I’m quite well. Listening to music just now. Some wonderfully beautiful songs, Rabindranath’s monsoon songs……. Is it raining in Chittagong, by any chance? Send some of it here, won’t you, brother!
Chandrima, how are you? How are your days passing?
March 19, 2011
My heart feels terribly heavy. I need to lift my spirits. Friends, what can one do to feel better, tell me? Should I watch comedy shows? But what I’m watching—how is that any less absurd?
No! It seems no prayer works today! Has God fallen asleep? Or does God only stay awake for the more deserving?
God says, “First deserve, then pray.”
This is how our dreams get murdered! And yet we live on hope. How strange! How melancholy, this cohabitation with dreams! I’ve suffered far too much…….
If we win, everyone will shout hip hip hurray, if we lose, shame! shame!……… It’s a game!!
March 19, 2011
But life is never so easy as not have to say Goodbye. Thank you, didi……. Let me add more…
…….. when dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and touching the roof in his strong arms meant high above the sky (not being the World Champion)….when I loved everybody and everyone loved me as well……… I wanna be back to those days of innocence.
Sushanta Paul
March 22, 2011
Dear friends, I want to sell my
giftshop “DOVANA” situated at Chawk Bazar, Chittagong……. This
offer includes: the products, decoration, trade license, goodwill, brand value
and other necessary equipments. If anyone of you are genuinely interested in
accepting the offer, please don’t hesitate to contact me for any
enquiries……. Thanks.
That’s fine! A HUGE discount is
going on. We’re selling products just @ our cost. You can visit my shop and
purchase that gift. My brother is now in Chittagong. Tell him that you’re my
student………… Thanks for liking it.
March 22, 2011
Listen, what are you doing with that black IBA t-shirt of yours? Why don’t you give us that t-shirt!
You’ll be going on more tours anyway, so you’ll get more t-shirts. Please please please
……….please!
: Okay,
I’ll give it to you.
March 23, 2011
Ironically enough, we often spend
time teaching others how to manage their familial ties ignoring ours.
I also have one…….. Happy
family, happy faces…….
March 25, 2011
March 25, 1971……. the day that
ended in the darkest night of the history……. Blood marked the walk to
FREEDOM, the search of IDENTITY……… A BIG salute to the greatest sons of
our soil.
Reflection: Four hundred and eighteen
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March 25, 2011
It’s too late……. And……. Now
I can realize……. My father was right……. I’m sorry, baba. Illusions are
illusions, always…….
Life is but a tale told by an
idiot……. My life is so far a plot to be made story……. And, I’m the biggest
IDIOT and have always had a bad imagination…….. Parents are never
wrong……. They’ve seen the stories we even can never imagine.
……. Bhai, what you can see is
the good part of my life……. What you or I can’t see is the worse one…….
What both of us can’t see is the worst one……. And, my father saw it when I
couldn’t even imagine of it…….. But I told him that he lacked vision…….
Idiots get their punishment much more than their stupidity could give…….
And that’s what I’m getting now…
…….. এখন ভাবি, কী-ই বা নেই
ভুল……. সঠিক জিনিসটা সঠিক জায়গা হারিয়ে ফেলে। সঠিক জায়গাটা সঠিক মানুষকে হারিয়ে ফেলে। সঠিক মানুষটা সঠিক দৃষ্টিভঙ্গি হারিয়ে ফেলে…….. যা কিছু বিরাজমান, তাকে কেন্দ্রীভূত বলা হয়েছিল। কেন্দ্রটাও হারিয়ে গেল। কিন্তু বৃত্তটা থেকে গেল! যে পথে যাওয়া হয়নি সেটা থেকে গেল ভ্রান্তি হয়ে, তবু জানি যেতে হবে। ভ্রান্তিগুলো এমন দূরত্বে যেখানে পৌঁছানোর সাহসও নেই!! এ কি বিড়ম্বনা নয়?…….. জীবন কখনো ন্যায্য নয়, বন্ধু, জীবন কখনোই ন্যায্য নয়!!সুশান্ত পাল
আত্মম্ভরিতা আর আত্মতুষ্টি — এরা অজ্ঞতার দুই কন্যা, আর আমি তাদের মাকে বিয়ে করেছি……. এমন বিয়ে কখনো শাস্তি ছাড়া যায় না,
কখনোই না!!…….
……… চাকা আবিষ্কারের নতুন করে উদ্যোগ আমার ক্ষেত্রে প্রমাণিত হয়েছে নিখাদ ব্যঙ্গের সাথে, যেহেতু আমি এটা প্রতিফলিতভাবে প্রয়োগ করেছি,
সম্ভবত এটা নির্দেশ করতে যে আমার কর্মকাণ্ডগুলো হয়তো নিছক চাকা আবিষ্কার হিসেবে ধরা হতে পারে, কিন্তু সেগুলোর আসলে কোনো অতিরিক্ত মূল্যই নেই।
……….. বন্ধু, তোমাদের অধিকাংশের
সমস্যা সৃষ্টি হয়েছে, আমি সেগুলো নিজের জন্য সৃষ্টি করেছি। পরিণতি থেকে আমি পালাতে পারি না। প্রতি মুহূর্তে সেগুলোর মুখোমুখি হচ্ছি। বাবা প্রতি সেকেন্ডে সঠিক প্রমাণিত হন। এমন নয় যে স্বর্গরাজ্যে আমরা সহজে পৌঁছাই। যে জিনিসগুলোর যত্ন ইতোমধ্যে নেওয়া হয়েছে, সেগুলোর যত্ন নিতে শুরু করেছি!! এটা ভয়ানক, ভাই!! এখন পর্যবেক্ষণ করছি, অথচ নিছক একজন পর্যবেক্ষক হওয়ার কথা ছিল না। আমার চারপাশের অন্যরা কবে সুযোগ পাবে?? আমি কি চিরকাল পর্যবেক্ষণই করে যাব?!!………… ~~ দীর্ঘশ্বাস
~~…………….. যত্ন নিও, ভাই।
……………
যে অপূর্ব মানুষটি হওয়ার স্বপ্ন দেখতাম,
সেই মানুষটি আর আমার মধ্যে নেই
কিংবা বাবার চোখেও নেই।
লক্ষ্যহীন ঘোরাঘুরি, দিকহারা,
শুধু আশা করি পথ খুঁজে পাব।
যদি শুধু আমার হৃদয় আমাকে অনুমতি দিত তার দেওয়ালে খোদাই করতে
“আমি দুঃখিত”, গভীর, সযত্নে খোদাই করা অক্ষরে
যা কখনো মুছে যেতে পারে না
তারা শুধু আমার সমস্ত আগামীতে সুখের কামনা করে,
আর আমার গতকালগুলোর স্মৃতিতে শান্তি…যদি শুধু…………
~~ দীর্ঘশ্বাস ~~
আর যখনই তুমি সেই শব্দগুলো অনুসরণ করবে তুমি অনুভব করবে
আমার অনুশোচনা আর আন্তরিকতা, আর অবশেষে বুঝতে পারবে আমি কতটা বোকা ছিলাম!!!
২৬শে মার্চ, ২০১১
নির্দোষতা আর নির্বুদ্ধিতা দুই বোন।
আমার ইচ্ছা ছিল তাদের যে কোনো একজনকে বিয়ে করতে পারতাম।
২৬শে মার্চ, ২০১১
I had been waiting on the platform at Kamalapur Station for quite some time…….the train finally arrived, and I’m still waiting……. Who knows what time the 11 o’clock train actually departs!…….I should feel annoyed, but I don’t. This indifference to irritation shouldn’t exist in me! Then why? Because I’m returning home? That must be it!
Now at least I’m happy thinking that the train has come! Risk and problems……both seem familiar when I return home.
…….. Let’s first be changed, then change. We’re responsible for this problem. Who are the Govt? We ourselves are the Govt. We elected them and so we can’t escape the aftermath too.
……..Brother, I myself didn’t know I was going to Chittagong, how could I tell you? I decided at 9, and left home right then…….
March 27, 2011
Never think it compulsory to attend a program or a party where your presence might be considered optional…….Anyone disagree?
…………. Friend, no need to run away, attend it. I understand, I can understand your situation. You are surely a tougher man to do this tough task.
………. Brother, if it’s official, nobody is going to take your presence personally. And, in such cases, usually the program is organized maintaining a highly sophisticated decorum. Almost all the official programs have little attention to the guests. And, if you are not a guest, rather the program is yours, I think, it’s better not to tolerate any type of gesture that is meant for setting you aside.
……Friend, I’m still unemployed, so I haven’t fully grasped what busyness really means. But you’re right……. Stay well…….Pray for me so I can stay well too.
……… That’s a good idea, Sir……. When you plan of drawing a picture, and you find the picture already drawn frowning your ability to draw it, do you deserve such an insult? It hurts, Sir. Art for art’s sake is purely individual initially. But when an artist doesn’t know or is not let know how much better or how much worse his own creation is, should he visit the art exhibition? You’ve no right to underestimate a person’s power. If you do it, you’re only demonstrating your own weakness in a most disgracing way. Only the person with a very low personality, tries to set aside his contemporaries to conceal his own weakness. I might accept or reject what you say, but till my death I’ll try to defend your right to say it. When I fear to face you, I’m just proving myself miserable…….. Thanks.
Thought: Four Hundred Nineteen
…………………………………………………
March 30, 2011
And……. “The Battle” is
over!! Good Luck India!! The BIG crown waits for You!! Just GO and WIN!! And,
the History waits for “The Century of Centuries”!!!
March 31, 2011
: How’s the monsoon reverie going?……
: Well enough…….when I’m home, sitting on the veranda with a book of poetry in hand, sipping coffee…….. And when I’m out, hurrying home while quarreling with the rain….
What else is there in life!
March 31, 2011
Dear friends, what is the single
most influential book you’ve ever read that you can recommend?……. Please
share……..
April 1, 2011
: lovely profile picture……..
LOVED the pose! Absolutely love it!
: Didi, thanks a lot for the comment.
Like elder sister, like younger brother……… I’m happy that you’ve not
forgotten me.
: Ritu didi……… Huh! I know you
were thinking of me lately!…….. And, I always think of you whenever I’m
here on Facebook……. (And you know, I’m always on Facebook!)…….. Missing
you, didi.
Sarada didi……… You’re sweeter,
no doubt! I’ve always liked, still like and will like forever the way you meet
me every time.
April 1, 2011
I never thought of study as
employment. I’ve never asked myself why I’m devoting several years of my life
to my studies. Is it the likely reason that I’m poorly directed and still far
away from what I deserve?
Study for study’s sake is probably a
suicidal idea and very silly from the materialistic approach. In this sense,
I’ve always been an emotional fool. They say, study pays. My study has not yet
paid me much. And, I’m doubtful of any future benefit derived from my studies.
What I know, isn’t what I’m supposed to know. So miserable, if everything is
taken into consideration. Does everyone else live in such a Utopia? Academic
pessimism kills me every moment…
……… Very diplomatic answer,
our teachers advise us to behave in such a “It depends” manner. An
MBA degree is often meant for such a ‘safe-sided’ circumstance.
…….. Buy a compass before you
buy a clock!……. That’s what we often reverse and there’s a constant fight
with time. Never are there moments of happiness with time. Enough is never
enough.
……… পড়াশোনা সত্যিই ফল দিয়েছে, স্যার। কিন্তু আরও সত্য এই যে, আমাকে এর চেয়ে বেশি দাম চুকাতে হয়েছে। আমার একাডেমিক জীবন আর আমার আবেগ প্রায়ই পরস্পরের বিরোধী হয়ে দাঁড়িয়েছে। আর আমি সবসময়ই একজন খারাপ দরকষাকষিকারী প্রমাণিত হয়েছি। আমি কখনও আমার পড়ার বিষয়ের শিক্ষার্থী হইনি, আমি কখনও আমার শেখার বিষয়ের ছাত্র হইনি। আর স্যার, আপনি জানেন, এমন অমিল কদাচিৎ শাস্তি ছাড়া থেকে যায়।
……… স্যার, আমি জীবন খুব একটা দেখিনি আর যতটুকু দেখেছি তা দেখার মতো ছিল না। আমার জীবন সবসময়ই ছিল এক পাগলের বলা গল্প। চিত্রনাট্য ভালো ছিল, গল্পকার ছিল খারাপ। আমি জানি, খেলা এখনও শেষ হয়নি; তবে হতেও পারে…….. আকাঙ্ক্ষার সবচেয়ে বড় ট্র্যাজেডি হলো, আমরা প্রায়ই আমাদের প্রাপ্যের চেয়ে কম কামনা করি। দুঃখের বিষয়, এই দুইয়ের মধ্যে ব্যবধান কদাচিৎ ‘মিটে যেতে’ দেখা যায়। আমার সমস্যা এই ছিল না যে আমি আমার প্রাপ্যের চেয়ে বেশি কামনা করেছি, বরং আমি আমার প্রাপ্যের চেয়ে কম কামনা করেছি……. আর সুখবর হলো, আমি একসময় যা বোকার মতো কামনা করেছিলাম, সেখান থেকে সরে এসেছি।
…….. ধন্যবাদ ম্যাডাম, আপনার অনুপ্রেরণাদায়ক কথাগুলোর জন্য। আপনি সবসময়ই আমার জন্য এমন এক পথপ্রদর্শক নক্ষত্র! ………. প্রতিটি বন্দুকের নিজস্ব স্বর আছে। বন্দুক না বদলালে আমরা কখনও স্বর বদলাতে পারি না। আমি সেই ‘পরিবর্তন’ আনার চেষ্টা করছি। সহজ কাজ নয় এটা; তবে ছেড়ে দেওয়াটাও তুচ্ছ কিছু নয়। আমি জানি না আমার স্বপ্নের কাছে পৌঁছানোর জন্য আমি কতটা বা কত কম উঁচুতে উড়তে পারব। কিন্তু ম্যাডাম, আপনি জানেন, দিনের শেষে কেবল স্বপ্নই কথা বলে! আমি প্রায়ই আমার ভ্রমময় বছরগুলোর জন্য দীর্ঘশ্বাস ফেলি। আমি পরিকল্পনা করতে শিখিনি আর তাই ব্যর্থতার পরিকল্পনা করেছি!……. আমি কখনও আমার জীবন সামলাতে শিখিনি, কখনও দরকষাকষি করার চেষ্টাও করিনি। কী বোকা ছিলাম! আর তাই কিছুই আমার পক্ষে দাঁড়ায়নি, আমিও কিছুর পক্ষে দাঁড়াইনি। বাস্তব জীবনের অর্জনগুলো আমার স্বপ্ন থেকে আরও দূরে, আর এর জন্য আমিই একমাত্র দায়ী!…….. যাই হোক, আমি আমার শেখা আর পড়াশোনা দুটোর সাথেই প্রেমে পড়তে শিখছি। যা হওয়ার তাই হবে। আর আমি আমার এবং আমার শুভাকাঙ্ক্ষীদের জন্য পরিস্থিতি ভালো করে তোলার জন্য যথাসাধ্য চেষ্টা করছি।
……… খুব সুন্দরভাবে ব্যাখ্যা করেছেন, ম্যাডাম। কর্পোরেট জগৎ কখনও এতটা স্বস্তিদায়ক নয় যতটা আশেপাশের লোকেরা মনে করে। বেশি সুবিধার মানে সবসময় বেশি দায়িত্ব। আমি সত্যিই অবাক হয়েছিলাম যখন দেখেছিলাম আপনি আপনার অফিসে ক্রমাগত ব্যস্ত এবং তৎপর, আপনার কর্পোরেট গ্রাহকদের প্রতি প্রতিটি ইঞ্চি প্রতিশ্রুতি নিশ্চিত করতে। আমাদের প্রথম সাক্ষাৎের কথা আমি সবসময় মনে রাখব। সেটাই ছিল উচ্চমানের ব্যাংকিং পরিবেশের সাথে আমার প্রথম পরিচয়। আপনি যে এত বন্ধুত্বপূর্ণ অভ্যর্থনা দিয়েছিলেন, তা আমি কল্পনাও করতে পারিনি……….. আপনার আগের মন্তব্যে প্রতিটি বিষয় স্পষ্ট করে তোলার জন্য অনেক ধন্যবাদ। আপনার কাছ থেকে আরও শেখার অপেক্ষায় রইলাম……… যত্ন নিবেন।
২ এপ্রিল, ২০১১
বিজয় ঠিক ওখানেই!!
সুশান্ত পাল
April 2, 2011
Yes!! ’83 is back!! And……. The
Cup goes to India!! Hats off to the new World Champions!! Thank you, India
& Sri Lanka, for making the match spectacular!! Cricket talks aloud!!
………. Very well said,
Sir………….. “In 83, we stopped winning-spree of West Indies and
thereafter they never won”………… So nicely observed!! But Sri Lanka
are too tough a team to be so vulnerable, I think………….. And, really
nothing binds so closely like cricket & Football. I think, now it’s time to
declare cricket as the national game of India.
April 3, 2011
: Man, I have been crazier than a
teenager in love!!! LOL……. but indeed, what a game! haven’t slept a
wink……. and all worth it!!!!
: Hahahaha…….. Didi, tell me
something I don’t know, you’re always like a teen-ager in love!!…….. Yes,
that’s worth it!! The match itself talked aloud!! Oye didi!! Since when have
you been such a hardcore fan of cricket? It’s amazing!! Now you seem to be on
the right track! Today’s match was just breath-taking. Even every second
counted!!…….. I wish I could tape the scene of biting your dog’s nails!!
Hahahaha……..
Thought: Four Hundred and Twenty
…………………………………………………
April 4, 2011
I think, I’m not good enough at
English……. I’m no good at thinking straight (even if sometimes I’m, I can’t
write clearly what I think), I can’t speak better, I’m no good at being
myself…….. Dear friends, could you please suggest me how to speak better,
write better, express better in English? Any kind of help would be appreciated.
……… Dear friend, I often can’t
connect my thoughts while writing and speaking. Any suggestions?
…….. Masima, no, no, nobody has
been rude to me (How they could be, I’m enough of it, I think!!) I’m happy
knowing that you hold a positive idea about me. Like others, I also try to
learn more through reading. And, it makes me really worried thinking about my
inability to write as lucidly as the writers do.
……… Let’s see what our friends
suggest us to do.
……….Thank you for your advice. I often get tangled up in this matter. I’ve tried, yet I cannot write beautifully in few words. I suppose I’ll have to try harder.
………. I couldn’t quite understand
whether there was any irony in your remark. If there was, then perhaps I deserve
it. If not, then I’ll assume it was your generosity. Thank you.
……….Friend,
I see you’re on my side too!
How delighted I am to find a companion. Let me see what our other friends have to say…..
……… Thank you, didi, for your
compliment. (Hope, what you thought is how I’m took it……….. But honestly,
didi, I feel so helpless about my incapability of connecting my thoughts. The
writers I read make me think and believe more of it.)
……….You’ve spoken truly, brother!
And I’ve asked in exactly that spirit.
……… Brother,
this is all I can manage—
updating statuses (and commenting)
is my limit!
………. Brother, knowing how
cheat weakness is a great virtue. Please share some cheat-codes. I also want to
win the game.
………What’s this!
What are you saying! Why do you fear me for such a wrong reason? Today you’ve learned the truth, so don’t be afraid anymore, brother!
……….Sister,
your first statement is entirely true, but not the rest. I don’t know how far you think I’ve come, but I can say with certainty that you’re not thinking correctly. And you’re trying to learn from me—that’s good. But learn carefully; I haven’t learned very much myself.
April 5, 2011
Praise is always healthier than
chicken soup.
Chicken soup is healthy for the
body, praise is healthy for soul. Nourishment of the soul is much more
important than that of body. A three-pack soul is stronger than a six-pack
body.
Old age, senescence, final years, and the days left to live……..Oh brother,
why are you making me think so much?
It’s life, yaar, let’s live it!……..But
whatever you say,
master, the mind, it seems, can no longer stay evergreen! No matter how much we cry out,
age doesn’t sit there with cotton stuffed in its ears!………When my younger brothers walk by
with their girlfriends,
right before my eyes,
laughing and strolling,
my heart breaks to pieces!
…….. Life is not getting any
more complicated, it’s not getting any simpler either. It’s getting exactly
what it’s supposed to be. We’re making it what we’re assuming it to be. Humans
are the only creatures who can hope for hope’s sake. It’s why we’re here, it’s
how we’re here…….. No sighs, please. The more you pay for them, the less
you receive from them.
…….. “I’ll understand everything, yet accept nothing.”……… This strange contradiction about love is inherent in human nature. Humans are deeply contradictory creatures, and we are no different,
brother!
‘So much deception, so much pain,
yet somehow it’s dipped in honey!’ Whether I eat Delhi’s sweets or not, I’ll regret it!……..So let me eat and regret! What else is there in life? How much can one person really get in a single lifetime!
…….. What’s the use of fearing
to be suffocated when you’re enough of it? Breaths come from within making a
better without. That’s all about life and love…..But, to some extent, it’s
true that……… LOVE IS OFTEN OVERRATED!!
And, most part of it we never meet.
Thanks.
Ishrat…….. Never be convinced
that you were born for sufferings. You’re entitled to all the pleasures of the
world. It’s your choice to be within or to be without it. Buddhism just teaches
you to be under Nirvana, a spiritual detachment from all mundane attachments,
making a greater journey to love and passion about your within and without.
That’s a different stream.
……… Let me start from your PS
(“No philosophical answer please…!!!!!”)……….. Not all philosophers are
the liars, not all without girlfriends are philosophers. I’ve every right to
seem to be a nerd philosopher and still without any girlfriend………… Once
you used to be too, I know.
I typed the word ‘girlfriends’ just
mistakenly (2:30 am was not a good time for good typing, you know!)………
And, later I wanted to remove that comment this morning and retype that comment
again; but my laziness prevented me from doing so, and AMAZINGLY enough, I just
did the right thing!! (Your comment proves it to be)……….. God bless your
life-partner!!
And, about relationship………..
Your comment sounds something like confessing before the father of a church
without the least hope of being pardoned!! It’s not easy for youth of 26+ (like
me) not to confide that ‘secret’ to his friends, you know; it was not easy for
you either (your comment makes it clearer than it is)!!!)……………
April 5, 2011
: Great profile pic, bro!
: Thank you, Sharmi didi. After a
long time, you’re here!! I was missing you badly and thinking of sending you a
message this evening. I was just about to send you that message and the net
connection went wrong. I’m sending you it right now, please check your
inbox………. Take care, didi.
April 6, 2011
: Did you really go to hell?
: How do I go there all alone?
April 6, 2011
Why your stupid boss is overpaid?
Why you’re not, though you’re smarter?
Dear friends……… He himself is
not smart but he can make you act even smarter. Is he overpaid for it? Maybe,
he is.
It’s natural. The boss of your boss
is also stupid. Ask him, and he’ll surely prove that he is smarter than his
boss…….. And if so is, you’re, no doubt, the smartest!! Enjoy this super
smartness till the time you become the BOSS. So, the bottom line is…………
It’s not easy to be stupid!! Who dares to disagree with the stupid (I mean,
boss)!!………………… Ouch!!
Brother, I know you feel hurt!! Don’t
worry, I hope your employees aren’t in my friend-list!!………… Oh brother,
don’t those helpless, stricken faces stir even a flicker of compassion in you? Why are you so heartless? I wonder if your wife found out, how many days’ worth of illusions would shatter—do you understand what I mean, brother??…………….
Hahahahahaha