The Outer Within, the Inner Without

You are sleepless, ever-wakeful, all-knowing, the ground of all, pervading all, infinite in form, one, indivisible. You render inner and outer one; you make them seamless. And yet within this singular, unbroken consciousness, there dwells the bond of mother and child, of lover and beloved. This is how you remain bent upon me, devoted to my happiness, my highest good—I see you from beginning to end, you are all in all, and yet this love, this devotion—the mystery yields nothing.

Be as you will; I am content with what you show. You are in me, I in you; I am yours, you are mine. You love me with infinite tenderness; there is no greater work for you than my care. I rest in this. What knowledge could surpass it? What truth more precious to know? I am yours forever, you are mine forever. I shall not perish, shall not die; my ascent knows no end; your love for me knows no limit; your care for me knows no bound. What finer word could I learn? What sweeter song hear? Let this love ever be before me. Keep it in my sight. Let my eyes fix upon it, my heart dwell in it, my life circle within it, overflow with it.

You see my fear, you see my restlessness. When will these pass? Not "when"—let them pass now. My salvation, my unbroken union with you... or is it already perfected within you? Is that all? Must it not be revealed? Why delay the showing? What is delay itself? The moment I come to you, I glimpse that union. And if I will to see it, cannot I see? Open the eyes of my love, that I might see that eternal union again and again, might dwell in it always.

Why do you break the union—can you even speak of such breaking? I understand it as part of your order, yet only because I am still a child. Your elder children—theirs is a union that never breaks, is it not? I catch such glimpses of that unbreakable union, and from these glimpses I know that one day such union may be mine. Make it mine; make it mine soon. My eyes may sometimes turn from you, but let my soul never return. Let my soul be bound to you. Let that binding of the soul never snap.