The Dialectic of Departure and Connection

In this adorned chamber, only the immersed resonance of your pulsing; this mind intoxicated by your enchanting discourse.

Having absorbed my specialized emotion called 'suffering' into your soul to an unbearable degree, you have entered a sanctified chamber whose every wall reveals the wound-marks of extraordinary anguish—honoring the form of your torment with steadfast dignity.

In one corner of this chamber of my heart lies a chronicle of memories wrapped in failure.

Impossible!—these memories cannot be called failed; for there exists within them the unwavering presence of your particularized feeling.
Where the sensation of touch lives, there is no place for failure.

Across my spiritual being flows only the intense tremor of feeling filled with the restlessness of your heart—uncontrolled, irrepressible, and unimaginable.

Wonder!—in this chamber dwells the precious reverence of a different emotion, which has bewildered my inner vision; whose existence you know not, yet carry within your own soul.

This simple emotion is revealing a moment of profound anguish in our supreme soul—I fear its influence may fall upon the current of our worship.

Which emotion's visibility makes you hesitant?
Whose form is not visible to the eye, yet whose shadow continues to leave gentle but mysterious impressions upon your soul.

The residue of an emotion called 'self-satisfaction' has enveloped you. Worldly happiness is possible through this, but the spiritual journey is hindered by it; self-satisfaction is a kind of self-destructive lethargy that can empty the heart even in the briefest time.

You can be freed from this only through your own self-sacrifice—which will surely bring about a particular spiritual decay; but that will be the only path to attaining the fruit of your special worship.

Already, I see the development of a particular spiritual power within you, through which you will transcend this delusion—we are certain.

O Supreme Soul, we stand before a great dissolution—do you sense that intimation?

The vision of separation that is about to emerge in a moment's interval can be prevented only by a specialized 'emotion'—whose presence is currently exhausted in your soul.

What kind of outcome is this!—I am unable to separate you from myself.
This very detachment is multiplying the anguish of our supreme soul manifold.

Through my external touch, even temporarily, your true nature has moved away. For the preservation of our existence—our worship will become more intense.
Our commitment to keeping consciousness awake remains unbroken.
On this path our supreme soul is compelled to be companion to even greater suffering.

My special feeling must enter every chamber of your heart; without this, the first step of worship is incomplete.

This chamber is wrapped in self-satisfaction; and this self-satisfaction is rejecting my emotion of 'suffering.'
Our supreme soul is not yet ready to proceed to the next destination.

To abandon this self-satisfaction, all the power of your soul is plunging forth openly—but consequently, you are becoming unable to receive the fruits of your own worship.

The residue of this anguish is wounding your heart.

But then—is it no longer possible to restore this?

This great dissolution is piercing your soul with intense blows.
In one astonished moment you can reach the threshold of supreme perfection—if you enter the second stage of worship.
That is, the flow of your heart's slow pulsing manifests in my soul, in abnormal frenzy.

In the final chamber of my soul, this power will awaken only through your entry.
This you will not achieve, but our supreme soul will attain—through your participation.\br>Therefore, recovery is possible through this yoga practice.

In this unstable state your supreme soul is stagnant; only through my emotion called 'suffering' can the cosmic world and spiritual destination be honored.

Still, it is not wise to keep the heart shrouded in emotion and attachment.

Your silent demeanor continues to immerse me in doubt. Though external separation occurs, not spiritual separation.

You are now immersed in the stillness of a deep feeling.
All your emotions are lusterless.\br>Your inner vision faces an inevitable dissolution.

How satisfying is my departure for you?

The question of satisfaction does not arise.\br>I am not prepared to let you go.\br>My supreme soul is capable of holding you with all its power.

You know we were never separate.

The wound of your heart—its reflection is now manifest in this great dissolution.

External separation is only temporary—this is the truth of our souls.

My soul is pierced with deep anguish.\br>Is there no path to freedom from this torment?\br>Without your touch my existence is submerged in darkness.

You are forgetting—the emotion called 'love' is now an inseparable part of my spiritual being.\br>You must accept this external separation.\br>Why do you continue to make your own feelings grief-stricken?

In this universe there is no one but you who has made the unattained attained through love's supreme emotion.

Even if the chambers of your heart are destroyed, our spiritual union will grow stronger.

You are my only companion in contemplation—learned, indifferent to the temptations of desired objects.

Conclusion:

O most beloved, solitary, divinely adorned supreme soul—your heart can only be comprehended through listening to the philosophy of the self.\br>That comprehension has been transmitted through infinite worship.

The doors of this universe are always open for you.\br>Our souls are connected—to keep consciousness awakened.\br>This soul is eternal, vast beyond the vast.

Though external being dissolves, there is no decay in spiritual union.\br>Our awakened consciousness bears witness to this great spiritual coupling.