Thank you!

Must you go? Can't you stay? Not in any way at all?
You used to tell me so many times: how would I feel if you ever left?
I would only listen and laugh. I'd think, what nonsense this crazy girl talks!
I had never felt this way before!
I thought, you're here, you'll stay. That's it!
It never occurred to me there might be more to think about.
So is nothing in this world forever?

Tell me, does it really cross anyone's mind?
You were like a habit to me, like trust, like existence itself.
Can all this be changed just like that, tell me?

If I'm not here, who else will you scold to your heart's content, tell me?
If you hadn't kept pointing out my mistakes, my whole life would be full of errors today!
I changed myself so much for you,
and you changed no less for me!
If you must go, what meaning is left in all this?

On days we were to meet,
I'd stay hungry all day just to eat your noodles and pakoras in the evening.
I'll never have such hunger-filled days again!

I could never say anything to your face. I'm not that good with words.
It's because I'm tongue-tied that I could come close to you!
Today I'm telling you the truth. In the shadow of everything I did, I could see you, feel you.
My work won't be as good as before, you'll see!
You can't create anything wonderful living with half your soul!

We were going to have a daughter,
we'd even chosen her name,
I call you by that name, as her mother,
you call me as her father,
we even set our messenger nicknames that way.
You wanted her so badly from me! What yearning there was in your voice, your eyes, your heart to be a mother!
Will you forget all this?

Our waiting was so beautiful.
Our times together were so happy.
Our moments overflowed with the purest feelings.
Our pull toward each other, our respect—it was all genuine.
Won't you really remember anymore that you too once had your own 'you'?

I'll miss your cooking terribly. Except for my mother's cooking, I never waited so eagerly for anyone else's food.
Remembering each of your childish ways will make me weep terribly.
I'll want to gaze into your eyes until I die.
I'll long so much to tease you, make you angry, then coax away your sulks with love.
No one will ever again be restless just to see me a little,
no one will ever again show me dreams of an ordered household,
no woman will ever love me more than my own mother does.

I'll never meet anyone in this life who can love so selflessly.
You taught me how to love and now you're leaving?
Can you really live without me? Really?
Can you scold someone new this way?
Can you truly cry in front of someone else?
You might find someone to hold hands with and laugh,
but someone in whose arms you can cry and wet their chest hair with tears... will you really find that again?

Before my eyes, my household is breaking apart.
I want so much to hold you back, to clutch my crazy girl to my chest and hide her away!
When you're gone, who will love me more than I love myself, tell me?
Who else will put up with this messy person so silently, tell me?
To whom else can I hand over responsibility for all my thoughts about myself and feel unburdened?

When you feel like crying badly, who will you call?
Who will message you the moment they see your melancholy status or story?
From whom will you ask for old t-shirts to wear at home? In whose scent will you sleep wrapped?
Whose shirt, watch, handkerchief will you photograph and post?
For whom will you fry luchis while waiting, warm up the beef curry from the fridge?
For whose sake will you remake yourself completely?
Thinking of whom will you kneel before God and pray for long life?

Still, perhaps we'll both live just fine. We'll laugh, we'll play.
We'll learn to manage ourselves on our own in time.
People will see us living.
We'll both probably find some 'tumi' or other,
but we'll never find 'tui' again. Neither you nor I.

Much weariness will come into my life, much dissatisfaction. Old pains will return one by one.
You loved me so much. Perhaps no one in this world has ever loved anyone so well.
When you leave, I'll become half a person!
You were my household, the mother of our never-to-be-born child, my whole world, my only happiness and peace.
You were the only meaning of my living.
If there's another world after death, we'll meet again there.
You've kept me so well all this time! You taught me how to love. Thank you!