Sublime, Incomplete

: You must be doing wonderfully well after running away, aren't you? There's one question I'm still dying to know the answer to... did you manage to escape from yourself?
: I know you still haven't been able to forgive me, Neer.
: Forgive whom? You? I swept away the faithfulness of all those feelings I'd saved up for you ages ago.
: Will you keep scorning me even today, Neer? That unprovoked blow you dealt me that day still leaves me wounded. Did you ever once bother to check if I was alright? Couldn't I have waited for you?
: Why have you come, Tithi? To break me apart again? I can't take any more! I have no time for you.
: Why are you lying? If you can, look me in the eye and say it. Look at me, Neer.

: Don't do this. I could never put myself through such pain for you. I've told you before—my own peace of mind and keeping myself well matter more to me. Don't bother me.
: You're still exactly the same today, haven't changed a bit. Want to know why I ran away that day?
: No, not today. You have no right to tell me, and I have no right to listen.
: You will have to listen. The moment I realized that staying with me wouldn't let you keep yourself well, I quietly withdrew from your life.

: After suffering from the illness of love for so long, I understood that I could never become what you wanted me to be. With this inadequacy that wouldn't leave me alone even when I hurt myself—what right did I have to keep coming before you again and again, demanding love?
: I still feel sorry for treating you badly, Tithi. But believe me, I never asked you to leave my life. Every day I wanted to make you mine, wanted only to remain captivated by the magic in your eyes, nothing else. Couldn't you understand that even once? You're not that obtuse.
: If I told you that I understood only you—more than I understood myself—would you accept that? I simply didn't want my dark period to gain permanence in the presence of someone as luminous as you.

: How much longer will you live in circles, Tithi? All this is merely an attempt to avoid reality, nothing special. If distance was what you wanted, then why did you leave the weight of your missing emotions with me?
: I never imagined we'd meet like this after so much time.
: You still keep me at the end of your thoughts, don't you?
: What do you think?
: I don't know.
: Today could be very different for us, Neer. Can you guess how?
: How?
: I have to leave again soon.
: Such a hurry to go? Then why did you come? Have you become too important now?
: Why do you speak so hurtfully, Neer? I'm utterly insignificant. Still exactly as I was before—someone who can only love you madly.

: Your extraordinary capacity for loving so deeply has amazed me time and again, Tithi. You've never given me the chance to deny that. Anyway, what did you mean about things being different?
: Right now, forgetting all resentment and accusations, can't you just hold me once, Neer? Touch me once more. I can't carry the weight of all these faded memories alone anymore without you. Since seeing you, I'm no longer inside myself—can you understand that, Neer? I desperately want to place myself in your embrace. Something inside me is burning with anguish.
: Trying to bind me again with momentary enchantment?
: Stay well. Sorry for wasting your time.

: Where are you going, you fool! Will you leave without seeing what's inside my heart?
: How many days it's been since you held me so deeply, Neer! I feel like there's no incompleteness left in this life of mine.
: You don't know how long I've waited to have you close like this for one more moment, Tithi. Your touch devastates the depths of my soul. Can you feel it?
: I love you.

: I can't bear to see tears in your eyes. Don't cry, Tithi.
: You know, I thought I'd write about you, but I couldn't. Without your touch, your scent, your gaze, it was completely impossible. From today, I feel I can again. All this time I'd only kept you imprisoned within the walls of my feelings.
: I've never seen another person with such pure feelings as you.
: You are me—this me belongs entirely to you.