Questions Evolved in Fossil Eyes

 
I truly know
your heartfelt good wishes
are indeed reserved for me.
In your unconscious feelings
I dwell always.


Yet your lips, eager to speak,
you painfully hold back behind locked gates,
fearing that love for me might slip out
carelessly...
along with some recognition...of all those things
I've done without the slightest hunger for acclaim.


I keep crying out, crying out...
those words I've never spoken to you. Still,
I don't want my cries to break your meditation.
Just after thinking this wish not to disturb,
in fierce hurt my voice
becomes choked with tears.


Whether you give me love or not,
I'll live quite happily with my own love!
Whatever I've come to know of you
is enough to spend several lifetimes
smiling...
this brief existence will pass in a moment!


Don't let me speak, silence me,
threaten me with punishment, yet
in your arable fields
I'll keep pushing the plow...as long
as strength remains in these wrists.


With hunger in my belly, weak hands, but
with the mind's fierce will in this barren frontier...
as long as life flows in this body,
I'll keep breathing life into everything!
On the breast of this dust-grayed desert stone
I'll shed tears, and all around in heaps of laughter
greenness will bloom. This is my bold vow!


I know that one day
you will surely search for me.
Along the path where I've vanished,
you'll grope your way, searching...
just before the full moon wanes
it leaves its final mark on that path...
search there and you'll find me.


When you find me,
perhaps you'll find only a fossil! You'll see
a world's worth of weightless indifference
buried beneath
a hundred layers of earth.


I beg of you!
Don't wake my sleep that day!
Very carefully, without displacing
even a speck of dust,
touch that unknown person...
you'll see, in the corners of that person's eyes
still clings the stain
of dried water.


There were some answers there, which
time's evolution has now left as scattered fragments of questions!