Pushing through the spell of sleep

 
 You must listen to what I have to say!
 What I'm telling you, listen, understand. Even if you don't understand, just listen.
 You are ending my life the way earthquakes end city after city...
 The way lightning tears the sky from end to end,
 just so, exactly so, you keep tearing my life apart, laughing endlessly.
 Only because of you, no strength remains in my spine or ribs.
 The fruit of my sins keeps piercing through skin and flesh to strike bone—all my sins are for you alone!
  
 I am not some valley that can be easily soaked by rain at will.
 I am not some canyon where anyone can dive and disappear with ease.
 I have no duty to send your rivers sparkling toward that ocean.
 I am not some landscape you can arrange however you please,
 I am not some puppet dancing to riddling rhythms in the cave of your sins, know this well.
 I am not some vast forest that can be cut down, burned to ash in an instant!
 I am not that sturdy tree that transforms into furniture or houses—one by one.
 What use is it to suck my leaves or life-sap, to tear away my bark and branches?
 Don't ever think you can strip me bare, drink my blood, and easily ease your weariness!
  
 Remove your fingers from my hardened skin.
 I am no mountain that must be conquered,
 no peak you must climb to plant your victory flag with somersaults!
 Don't dig comfortable holes in my body—wind will play through those holes, this body is no such window.
 Whatever you understand of me, don't cling only to that, pay attention to my other sides too!
  
 Don't abandon your ship on my silent shore,
 I am not some continent that must be discovered,
 I am no blank space on your map that must be filled!
 I am not some peaceful territory where you can build settlements at will,
 I am not some refuge where you can flee and hide to gather comfort.
  
 I am the Milky Way, I spin endlessly, racing with the earth,
 In this body of mine shelter countless meteors and planets, stars and rivers of stars,
 Don't try to understand me, don't try to solve my mystery—you will fail, be disappointed.
 All your letters and numbers together cannot know me—not in a hundred lifetimes!
  
 Rather, look at me with wonder, you will find me at sunset,
 See how my rose and golden radiance spreads across the sea,
 When weariness comes to those eyes, when sorrow slowly wears away,
 How my horizon will fill you with contentment...
 When you cannot find me anywhere, don't search for existence—you won't find it at all.
  
 Look at me! I am every star in the sky.
 I scatter so many sparks in the void, stay in that stream of light, take fullness with both hands.
 Though you will ask for pebbles, I will carelessly turn you away,
 I will give you pearls by the handful when you ask for nothing at all.
 I am a waning moon fallen in the quiet desert,
 Close those two eyes and seek me in gentle tones,
 I will become the enchantment of your dreaming sleep and touch you tenderly,
 Where twilight spreads its colors, I will carefully take you there.
 How my light will dance in your shadow, see with your feelings.
  
 I am the vast ocean. I am immense, I am wild, I am free.
 Come close to me, be ready to tremble wonderfully in my storms,
 In the turbulent sea, who knows how much wonder and anxiety hide and wander!
 How much nectar and poison the sea swallows as it moves through unknown curves, who keeps track!
 Set sail in my waves, I will carry you away with such tenderness!
  
 Come inside here, keep walking without destination.
 I am an unconquerable dream—conquer me!
 I will frighten you, teach you to live.
 I am light, I am also mist.
 Let your 'you' merge with my 'I',
 See how joy and happiness will awaken in my infinity!
  
  
 If you have listened, just remember this;
 Whatever you've heard, accept it. What little you receive, you may not get again in several lifetimes.
 Don't get lost in the crowd of confessions and vows,
 Stay still, hold yourself firmly—right here!
 In seeking infinity, when did you lose yourself! Did you ever think?
 Open our hearts and look—see how infinity sleeps there!
 Call to it, call to it! Wake it and carry it with you, move forward!
 When the heart's sleep breaks, the world awakens! Wake it up—what else do you need to live and be?