On the shadowed path of your own infinity

I know, holding you close like that, I couldn't say anything to you that day.
Yet I wanted so desperately to tell you—
don't leave me.
Without you I feel utterly helpless.
I think I'll become numb—
if I can't keep touching you.

Listen, would this be asking too much?
Does wanting this much even suit me?
Would you want to count me among the selfish?
If you say— like the selfish
to keep my own feelings alive
I wanted to hold you back in deep embrace—
still I want to say,
I long terribly to be with you...
but I can't.

Why do you still fill every part of me?
Let our grievances balance out in the emptiness
in all the colors of our feelings.

I don't stay well without you.
My feelings keep getting wounded for a while.
Suddenly they crave your touch.
I wanted so much to keep you
filling my eyes.
How do I make you understand this?

I was such a fool before.
I thought love happened between two people.
Ha ha ha...
I didn't understand that bearing this deep feeling of love for you
I'd have to live alone.
Love is perhaps always one-sided.

That I love you—
you bear no responsibility for this.
Loving you, I'm only keeping myself alive.
Beyond this, what else could I expect from you, tell me?

Because I've fallen in love with you so completely
I found peace in this life, once.

I can't separate you from myself.
Living without feeling you causes me terrible pain.
Let me tell you some of our words—
keep them carefully.
Can you?

If we never speak again,
I want to leave with you
our last touch.

Does your heart still ache today—
at my leaving?

The intense touch of our spiritual feeling
I've given to you.
If you leave, it can no longer be tenderly guarded—
it will be lost.

Though love's truth may not be confirmed by two people's presence,
for the completeness of the memory-saga of our hearts' unexpressed feelings
you are desperately needed...
I am desperately needed...
we are surely needed.

Why can't I see you?
Then am I feeling you
through unbearable tears of anguish in my eyes?

Amazing!
Who is there?