Nature's Sense of Justice

: I used to call my ex "tui."
: Me too!
: But your person hasn't become an ex yet.
: How could they? They were never my present either!
: Meaning?
: Meaning they chose me to fill a window period. The window's closed, so their need for me in their life is over too. Simple math!
: I feel like having a huge fight with you. Yet you're nobody to me. Strange!
: Normal. Most of the people we spend so much emotion fighting with turn out to be nobody to us.
: So are you going through some kind of loveless intimacy with this person?
: I'm not going through it, I was going through it. They don't even pick up my calls now. We talk suddenly every five-six days. All my messages lie unseen in their inbox. My emotions have become just an excuse for unseen episodes to them now!
: Still, tell me, did you enjoy going through loveless intimacy? Really?
: I didn't know their touch lacked love. I knew mine had love. I'm completely honest with my own heart. That's what matters!
: That's how it is, you see? Most touch in this world is loveless—from one side or both sides.
: Look, I've loved many people without even touching them.
: Everyone does! I myself have drowned in touchless love many times at different stages of life. Then again, there were times I touched without loving. I "had to take" that experience too.
: Had to take? Well said. In our greed to live, how much we've had to take in this life, isn't it?
: But with those I was in love with before, friendship took precedence. Back then, touch or anything like that never even crossed anyone's mind. We found more joy just spending time together and working together. You could say they were companions of my daily life.
: How many times have you been in love so far?
: You've asked this question before. I don't really want to talk about it.
: Why would you! I'm nobody to you anyway.
: That's not it. I don't look back at what I leave behind. So I don't drag up old topics; you could say, I don't want to. What can I do...I'm just like that!
: Come, let's be mirrors to each other, tell each other everything. Fight, vent anger, then show affection again.
: We do that anyway, in season and out.
: You only fight and vent anger though!
: Finding someone to show affection to is easy, but you won't easily find someone to vent anger on. Can someone vent anger on a person they feel no pull toward? Take this person who's in my life now, I mean only from my side—I never even mistakenly vent anger on them—for fear they'll leave! The pull is only one-way, so that pull expresses itself as fear!
: Are they even there at all? They're not!
: They weren't, they're not, they won't be. Yet they seem like everything to me. All I have in my life now is what doesn't exist at all!
: ...Exactly how I feel about you! Is this nature's revenge then!?
: I think everyone has someone like that in their life—someone who never becomes an ex. How can someone who was never even present become an ex!