Monkey monkey!

 
You're terrified of falling in love, aren't you? Tell me true?
You just think, if I do fall hard and deep,
then at that bend in the road I'll surely stumble,
will my heart still stay intact?
Will I rise again like before
and run so easily as I did?

What if I actually marry her?
What if I throw tantrums then?
What if I hurl things around?
What if I shove her when she comes close?
What if I pinch her and make her cry?
What if I become a stranger sometimes?
Will she be able to handle it all?

Or is she just throwing around empty words?
Saying whatever comes to mind...
Speaking costs no tax after all,
and I'm not asking for explanations either!
I'm not stopping her, not scolding,
not throwing stern glances...
So she's saying whatever pops into her head!

Are you thinking, what kind of girl is this!
She just blurted out, "I love you!"
"I love you too!"...done! It slipped out!
Ugh, I'm such a fool of fools!
Now what? I've said it, how do I take it back?

What if she doesn't understand love at all?
What if she doesn't understand me as I am?
What if she tries to tie me down?
What if she throws away my books?
What if she mocks my poetry?
What if she calls me fat and ugly?
What if she loves me, but also makes me cry?

Hey boy! Are you troubled thinking all this?
Or is your heart saying this too...
So many girls are hovering around, I don't look...
Maybe this time I'll look back with a smile!
But what if when she comes forward I want to run away?
What if after seeing her I feel no pull at all?
What if my heart truly rebels?
I mean, what if she looks like a sister to me?
What will happen then?

They say if you pamper a monkey, it climbs on your head!
Say I give her space.
What if she becomes a monkey and climbs on my head?
Before entering the house, so many sweet words...
everyone says those!
Say I let her in! What if then
she jumps and hops? Bothers me day and night?
Now she hugs my neck so tenderly,
what if then in fury she comes to strangle me?
Now she's so soft and shy,
what if when angry she throws punches—thump-thump-thump?
What if at the slightest glare she bites me?
What if instead of throwing love, she hurls paperweights at me?
What if then I think constantly...
Where do I run now! Where do I run!

No way, buddy! I'm fine as I am!
If you beg, everyone will see
how I dance with dogs!
Let them ask me to marry...damn it!
I'll plug my ears too!
Before marriage, all cuddles and care!
After marriage, monkey business everywhere!
Ohhhh...buddy, what's the need, I'm alive aren't I!
Why must I bring a crocodile-aunty to my bed?