Lines for Good Sleep

 Don't love me quite so much!
 Then you'll see — you've become my habit.
 I'm not used to living with such happiness.
 My life has never been so filled with you.
 No one ever gave me such things, not even by mistake!
  
 When you say "I love you" with such tenderness in your voice,
 I wish so much... oh, if only life could stop right here!
 There's a certain pleasure in dying without hearing anything ugly before the end!
 When you say you love me, I think — I've lived so much already... how much more is needed!
 One moment of your love can make me forget millions of sorrows!
 Then I don't think about what I lack, I don't cry even when hurt!
 If living like this becomes a habit, how will I survive?
 I beg you, don't come so close to me!
  
 When someone shows a little kindness and says... girl, why is there such pain in your heart?
 Close your eyes and think of some joyful moment... or some face, a beloved face...
 You know, even then you're the only one before my eyes!
 Some people cry when they're hurt — apart from them, there are others
 whose eyes fill with tears in storms of joy!
 I never feel happiness, never feel pain... I only feel tears coming!
 When such thoughts come to mind, I feel utterly alone...
 And I think, if I could push the whole world aside, ah, if only I could hide in your chest!
  
 In this one life —
 I never received love.
 I never received sorrow.
 I never received tears.
 I only received you!
 ...In this one receiving, it's as if I've received the world in my palm!
 After finding you, lately I feel like thinking this way!
  
 Whenever I have you completely, in my own way,
 fear comes! Where will I keep all this 'you'?
 I fall at your feet — don't love me so much anymore!
 If I burn to death in your love, if my ashes keep flying in your wind,
 then what place is left for that love, tell me?
  
 They say people only cry when hurt! Sometimes they even burn!
 But what if someone's happiness exceeds the sky — don't they cry?
 Just look at me! Loving you so much that I should keep you somewhere safe —
 I don't even have that chance! Such burning, such bearing... all around only the chaos of joy!
 And in my room... only you! Seeing all this, I think,
 I've lived many days already, perhaps now I should say goodbye!
  
 Whenever you come and stand before me, I can't quite understand which way to go!
 Looking into your eyes, I could never say anything.
 Then I realize that even if I gathered all the strength in the world,
 I couldn't find the strength to be natural before you!
 I sent you away in fear, but you... why did you come back?
  
 If you ever sense how much I love you,
 I'll be so ashamed that day! Tell me,
 how do you read this heart? Say exactly what the heart is like!
 When you finally say... something... something that touches the heart so deeply,
 then from somewhere a storm comes... and seems to devour everything!
 When such a moment comes, thinking where to hide myself... I look first at your chest!
  
 When you pull me to your chest, hold me tight,
 your heart just says... here is everything! The whole life... like this!
 There was no past before this, there will be no future! Here... here is everything!
 But why do you make me stop like that?
 Don't you like anyone else? Is it really true?
 When such thoughts come to mind, I tell myself,
 living has been good this time, I found you,
 this is the supreme finding... I have no other desires!
  
 This terrible habit you're creating,
 giving so much love unconditionally —
 if I get any less than this... I think I'll die!
 And if I never get anything again... if such a thing happens,
 then I'll have to come down to the street dust as a beggar!
  
 One who has no piece of love in their breast pocket is truly deprived!
 I won't bow my head at anyone else's door — life became one finding,
 what do I have to worry about now?
 One life in one lifetime... isn't that enough! Does anyone get so much love in one birth?
  
 When you suddenly say "I love you"... it makes me feel so tender, you know?
 Without understanding why you love me, I burden myself with debt!
 Why so much debt? How will all this debt be repaid?
 This debt won't be finished in another lifetime —
 all this debt, how will I ever repay it?
  
 If there's such a place... something I can give, speak without hesitation!
 Love — I've received plenty of that now,
 let love grow even more in the days ahead!
 They died while living... let me live while dying!
 Let one birth pass in failure,
 I'll spend it laughing and playing without taking the contempt to heart!
 If I can manage to live, as a bonus if nothing else, at least I'll sleep well!