If You Stay, You'll Become a Cloud

: Have you ever ignored the touch of someone you love? Or their feelings—beyond your capacity to understand?

When you love deeply, you can never dismiss the terrible intensity in their voice—it would mean the immediate end of all your assumptions.

: Is it possible to love in such a way?

: No, not quite. Love happens exactly like this, and it's possible only this way! Your purest feelings seek completion only in the emotions of the one you love.

: But how do you come to terms with yourself when you can never keep them within your line of sight? Will they simply disappear like this?

: Ha ha... Who said you've lost them? You've simply loved them intensely! Is it their birthday today, perhaps? Then why have you hidden yourself away?

: Where? I did write—"Happy birthday, I love you..."

(I sent them my nearly dying, final words. I didn't want to tell them that today I wanted to hold them close one last time. Surely, they're doing very well in their own way! I don't want to burden them with my regrets anymore!)

: What are you listening to so intently?

: Their sigh? Did they speak with you?

: No.

(You can speak openly about everything to your friend, but you can't do that with everyone!)

: Speaking with you—did that not bring them comfort then?

: How strange! They never once talked to me about the person inside them! They thought of me the whole time as just a very sweet little girl. Understanding their feelings never fell within my boundaries!

(Hearing that phone conversation that day, I only understood that you weren't well. Nothing was pleasing you! Is it because you never wanted to run away that emotions couldn't touch your outer shell?)