If I Could Know...

If only you could know someday...
how many moments, seconds, minutes, hours...you dwell with me!
How many beautiful dreams I dream!
How much I weep...how much I love!
Not even a fraction of this exists in your thoughts!

Yet ask me once to stop...
Now I can do anything. Love gives a person the strength to do everything.

If my beliefs are wrong, tell me clearly...stop me!
Otherwise my imaginings will never cease...
I am so weary. If I must suffer, let it be just once.

I am such a person who has no one in this world now, nothing at all! A person utterly, completely alone. The things five other people can do naturally, I cannot do. Yet there are many things I can do naturally that others cannot.

I keep fulfilling duties in everything, but cannot enter into anything. I always feel I am in the wrong place with the wrong people. I suffer every moment, but don't even know the reason for my suffering.

Slowly I am becoming more alone, my world is growing smaller. I am a person living on imagination and solitude.

I cannot fulfill anyone's expectations, cannot keep anyone happy. I cannot be a lover. I can do nothing.

All of you, forget me.