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These past few months, I haven't lived a single hour without her. Every hour, somehow, we've been connected—the two of us tethered to each other. Either a phone call or a message. This is my first real separation. Six in the evening to half past midnight! How many conversations could have happened in those few hours!


I don't know why, but I'm weeping in gasps. Something inside my chest is sobbing, heaving. A terrible restlessness is suffocating me. It feels as though if I could hear that voice for just one second, I would live. Otherwise I'll die like some parched creature in the driest desert, dying right now, this very moment! I can sense clearly that the person on the other end is also in turmoil, sending me message after message, calling every few minutes, but my phone is off. In this terrible agitation, they must be thinking of me, growing melancholy in spells.


It's exactly quarter to one at night. I slip quietly from my mother's side and move into the kitchen. Since we met, from half past six in the evening to quarter to one at night—six and a quarter hours—this is our first such long separation. I call, trembling with anxiety. The moment the call connects, I burst into tears. He tries to say something from his end, but my sobbing floods the line and his agitation softens into silence. Neither of us speaks. In the sound of his breathing, all the pain in my chest melts away. My quiet weeping makes his breathing grow heavier and heavier. Tears stream down my face, and these tears wash away all my restlessness, all my thirst.


A profound silence. Outside, rain pours down relentlessly. Every few moments, lightning flashes. Each flash tears through my heart. Across thousands of miles of mobile phone lines, two people are growing closer and closer. The sound of gentle weeping, then a deep quiet between us both. His voice comes through: It feels like I'm talking to you after thousands of years!


Now my weeping grows louder. Just six and a quarter hours! And in this separation of six hours, I'm falling apart, crumbling to dust! From his end, in a soft voice meant to soothe me, he suddenly begins to sing: In the monsoon night, should I come to your memory…


Following our eternal custom, I close my eyes to the melody of his voice and lose myself in its rhythm. This joy is the first intoxicating happiness of my life, this love the first heart-piercing love of my life, this affection the deepest I have ever felt for anyone. It feels beautiful. Everything feels beautiful. Because he exists, I have everything.


It seems I am the only happy person in this world. That person on the other end of the phone, this me on this end, and these moments between us—heavenly, sacred. It feels wonderful, truly wonderful. He goes on singing, and I listen, enchanted. Outside, the rain, the wild wind, lightning flashing every few moments. Oh! How sweet! What a perfect moment! How nectar-like is this merging of the two of us! In the same note, the same rhythm, the same cadence—our joy today!


After that night, I understood: I am utterly possessed by a strange and wondrous love for him. Everything about him pleases me. All his flaws, his limitations, his failures, his shame—everything pleases me. I love him with all his virtues and vices together. I love him so much that I cannot remember when it happened. I only know that somewhere along the way, I fell completely.

I dreamed of a modest hut, the kind where two people might build a life. My children would be sweet as her sweets—running wild through rooms, their laughter filling the whole courtyard, keeping me bustled and busy until evening fell thick with contentment.

After a long day’s labor, my poor, weary husband would return home as dusk settled, his body heavy with exhaustion. I would tenderly wipe away all his weariness with a cloth, my touch gentle as prayer. I wanted nothing else—only him, entirely mine, for all the years to come, from head to toe. Our home would know hunger, would know scarcity, but it would overflow with love.

And so our heavenly days unfolded. Six months passed, one into another. From dawn to deep night we were bound in our playful quarrels. When he called late at night, laughter would pour out between us like rain. He would call at exactly half past midnight, carrying the whole world’s words in a basket. Speaking endlessly, his voice never tired. And listening endlessly, I never tired either. From dawn to midnight, minute after minute, he would tell me everything—what he did, what he saw, what remained to be done tomorrow. I knew it all. From his birth until now, every detail of his life, every moment, every place, every circumstance—I knew it all. His family, his neighborhood, his neighbors—I knew them. His friends, his nightlife, his financial worries—everything. He believed he had to tell me everything. He simply had to.

Finding in me an attentive listener, he became a remarkable speaker. He would talk and talk, and I would listen and listen. I wished I could spend a whole lifetime listening to that voice, and then in another birth, spend it only watching him, and in the birth after that, spend it recounting his words!

But days end. The sun rises on one horizon and sets on another. Then one day, suddenly, I discovered I was on his blocklist. I panicked. I thought perhaps someone new had entered his life. Or perhaps someone old had returned. In those six months, he had poured into me six million years of longing, and now perhaps he was caught in someone else’s web of affection. Perhaps he had extinguished the light in my room and was now suddenly lighting lamps in someone else’s home. Perhaps he had stolen all my smiles and become someone else’s laughter entirely. So many things could happen. So many things do happen. Who can say?

And now the world’s entire sorrow descended upon my small universe. I had never known what it feels like when the sky collapses on your head. Nothing made me want to laugh. He was my only reason for laughter. Before this, I had never laughed so freely as I did when a message came from him, giggling with abandon. That night, strangely, I could not cry. The night he chose, without reason, without explanation, to block me—I wanted to weep so badly, but the tears would not come.

After six months of habit, this man I had spoken to every single minute, whose slightest absence unsettled me, without whom I could not pass even a second—he suddenly changed. When he left, he didn’t even tell me once what wrong I had done, what mistake, what reason, what inadequacy of mine had driven him away. Since I never wanted to hold him back, I called only once. I saw then that I was blocked in his contacts too.

I didn’t call him a second time after that one call. I spent an entire day without him. A whole day I kept away from him! And yet, strangely, no tears came.

Evening dissolved into night, and my fear grew. Half past one. I tossed and turned, trying to sleep. Suddenly I felt it—my chest tearing open, my eyes burning, my heart breaking, and the tears came. I went out to the balcony where we’d sat talking through countless nights. There it all was: the window grille, the sky beyond it through the gaps, the sparrow’s nest in the corner of the balcony. In the branches of the flame tree, in the chair by the wall, in the white paint of the wall itself, in the cornice of that building’s roof, in the deep darkness of the night, in the torn moonlight spilling across the sky—everywhere, everywhere I found his face! My chest was splitting open. The pain inside me was unbearable.

In everything—his laugh, his words, the basket of stories he carried, his songs, his poems, every alley and byway of his life—I could see it all, hear it all so clearly! Touching it all with my heart! In that moment, it felt as though there was no one else left in the entire world but me. I was sitting alone in that desolation.

In the terrible silence pressing down from all sides, the bones in my ribs were shattering. No. I couldn’t hold on anymore. Then the tears came, streaming down. I cried, I wept, I sobbed with my body bent against the grille, touching the sparrow’s home with my tears, gazing with tear-blurred eyes at that building’s roof, my chest against the suffocating silence of the deep night—crying, crying without end. I was gasping between sobs, my heart was breaking open. I felt so alone, the whole world a desert around me. I cried and cried. Eventually dawn came, but sleep never did.

I went to campus a week later. Looking for him here and there. I sat down at the usual place. I saw him sitting across from me at the shop, just as he always did. I pretended not to see him. He kept glancing over. I finished my tea and left. My mind was churning with a thousand questions. Searching for answers to a thousand unresolved tangles. But I couldn’t find any reason for any of it.

I’m sitting at Zero Point, at that same spot, forcing a smile onto my lips. After a while, he came there too. Standing at the place where I first saw him, trying to look at me. I pretend not to notice, looking the other way. Yet even as I look away, my eyes are fixed on him. I want to run to him, slap his face and cheeks over and over, grab his collar and pull him into my chest. Hold him tight against my heart and cry, crying and crying, asking: What was my fault? Why did you leave me without warning? What secret thing were you struggling to say, stopping short again and again?

I want to let him go from my chest and place my hand on his heart, look into his eyes, and ask him: How have you been? How did these days pass without me? Were you able to sleep properly? Were you really able to not think of me? Where did you pocket all those words you’d been saving from morning till night? Were you really able to keep them from me? Did the bland food in the hall dining make your stomach ache? Did your roommate finally manage to win over that girl? Did your junior, the one who calls me “aunty,” ask about me at all? Did you get caught trying to smuggle things again? How many packets of cigarettes have you burned through this past week, burning yourself with them—tell me?

# From the Train Window

Did you notice I’ve started smoking too?

No, I’m not doing any of that, and I won’t. If he could leave me behind, then I can manage just fine without him.

The train arrived. I got on. It pulled away. He stood there on the platform, motionless as before. I was leaving, and I turned back once to see what he was doing. What I saw: eyes brimming with every sorrow in the world, heavy with guilt, fixed on my carriage—those eyes hanging open, vacant, as if transfixed. What unspeakable anguish in those eyes! In the corners of them, hidden in that pain, lay so many unspoken words, so many untold stories—I could see them all so clearly.

The train moved fast. His gaze stayed fixed on me. As we pulled away, he shrank from view, from existence, in an instant. The farther the train carried me from him, the more tightly I gripped him in my mind. On the surface, I kept my face stern and hard, my bearing cold—but inside, my heart remained tender for him alone. My face showed him rage, resentment, even the hint of contempt; yet my heart held an ocean of love bound fast within it. I was drowning in that same fathomless sea.

When I got home, I went to the balcony and found three baby sparrows had hatched. I didn’t tell him.

Two crows fought beak to beak on the balcony this evening. I didn’t tell him.

The bachelor boys next door sang again from their balcony—”Hope lived within my heart, to build a home with you”—their old song. I didn’t tell him.

That green parrot came to the roof again, stayed awhile, then flew away. I didn’t tell him.

This evening while making tea, I added too much sugar. I didn’t tell him.

Some flowers fell from the neighbor’s flame tree on the western branch of their side, and new buds appeared on the eastern branch of mine. I didn’t tell him.

Three coconuts fell on their own from the fourteen hanging on the coconut tree that grows beside the balcony. I didn’t tell him.

Some reckless kids have been stealing guavas from the landlord’s tree. I saw them. I didn’t tell him.

The chair I used to sit on at that corner of the balcony—the one we’d talk from—it broke. They’ve put a new one there. I didn’t tell him.

My roommate Nusrat and her boyfriend Sumen had a terrible fight last night. They haven’t spoken all day. I didn’t tell him.

So many things I didn’t tell him. A whole week’s worth of accumulated words left unsaid. Who else can I tell all these saved-up things to? Who else will understand what they mean? No one but you. Can everyone become the ferryman of the Padma, like in Tagore? Can everyone be a whole “you” like that? Can I open my heart to everyone the way I do to you? Does everyone have the eyes to see a heart like that?

No, no. No one can be my “you” the way you are.

I logged into Facebook and saw I’m unblocked. But neither of us is messaging the other. Ego is at work in both our hearts. Every moment I’m on his wall, though I don’t know why, and I don’t want to know. I keep looking at his pictures, his posts, over and over. I don’t know why. I’m watching him constantly! Yet I don’t send him a message. He doesn’t send one either. Does he spend time on my wall too?

The days pass. I don’t go to campus like I used to. Once or twice a month, if that.

Every time I sat down for breakfast at that little shop, she would drift into the one next door and perch there, her eyes—raw with some unnamed ache—finding me again and again. In that pained gaze lived a story too difficult for words, something her eyes, her lips, her whole being whispered to me without ever speaking aloud.

I would finish quickly, slip away, catch the train. She would stand there watching the path I took. I would look everywhere but at her, careful to arrange my face as though I’d never known her at all. As though she were nothing to me, no one.

Month after month dissolved this way. I left without warning, yet I could not summon even a grain of hatred for her. However hard I searched, I found no anger, no resentment. She still seemed—exactly as she always had—like the finest person in the world. I swore to myself I would stop loving her. But I couldn’t. No matter what I did, I simply could not stop.

She wore that black t-shirt I loved, the one I’d always wanted. When older boys from campus sent me proposals of love, she would hunt them down and threaten them away. If any of them dared ask whether I knew her, I’d say flatly that I’d never heard of her. Every proposal that came my way, she’d quietly dismantle. She wouldn’t claim me for herself, yet she wouldn’t let me belong to anyone else. Peculiar boy. Impossible boy.

This was how first year ended and second year began. Neither of us reached for the other, yet neither of us let go. We lived by some strange, lawless rule—I tried to forget and couldn’t; she stayed near even from a distance. Days passed. Months. Years. And with them came a doubt that grew and grew. We never came close, yet we never truly parted either. Only stood at opposite ends of the same narrow space.

Eventually campus life ended for him. Mine was nearly finished. He stopped coming around. He didn’t follow anymore. Life had made him busy; time had dried my wounds. Time—that strange magician—fixes everything.

Years later, despite all my effort, I still hadn’t manufactured a single drop of hatred. My love hadn’t diminished by even a thread. It had only grown—along with my skill at pretending. I became expert at the performance: *I’ve forgotten her. I don’t love her anymore.* That lie, perfected and polished, was all that grew.

Sometimes, still, I wonder what he’s become.

# So Much That Was Never Known

I never came to know…
Does she still fall asleep with cough syrup, like before?
Does she still sit with friends and eat pile upon pile of onion fritters?
Can she manage the lentils from the hostel dining hall now?
Did she ever get caught stealing jackfruit and coconuts from the campus again?
Is the cat still alive at their house?
Does she still wear that black t-shirt I loved?
Does she still love black?
Does she still sing Anjana, Manna, and Nachiketa at the top of her voice?
Does she still cry at the smallest thing?
Is noodles still her favorite?
Does she still burn her hands when cooking?
When evening comes, does she still think of me the way she used to?
When her heart grows heavy, does she still lie under the open sky and stare?
Does she still love moonlight?

Shafiq, you must be doing well, I’m sure! I never told you—after you left, so many people have come into my life, and gone too. Yet no one has touched this heart the way you did.
That day your hand held mine, and love fled this city with you—ever since, the number of lovers in this city has only grown. But love itself has not.
No one else has ever seen inside me the way you did.

I never told you, Shafiq…
I still watch the sky when evening falls. I still love moonlight deeply.
Black is still my favorite color.
I still cry in the middle of the night, thinking of you. Sometimes the thought of you still makes my chest ache.
Still, mornings come to my city, afternoons stretch out, evenings descend, nights grow deep… and I face them all alone.
Still, how many hands I turn away while waiting for your path back to me—you couldn’t even imagine!

Sometimes I want to tell her so much. She was never told…
There’s a dark mole on the right side of my chest. The mole you loved is still there on the palm of my left hand. I can’t laugh the way I used to. I don’t stay awake past midnight anymore, waiting for someone’s call, burning with love. I don’t tell anyone else “I love you” the way I told you—from the depths of my being. I don’t dream of a humble cottage home anymore. I don’t spin stories of two little ones the way I did before. The longing to be someone’s wife has stopped stirring in me. I no longer wish to live a thousand years. I no longer see an entire world in anyone’s chest the way I saw in yours. I cannot love anyone the way I loved you. I no longer weep and flood my chest at the smallest parting. Not anymore have I found another “you”—someone I could give away, moment by moment, with a smile, all day and all night long!

Perhaps I’ll never tell you…
In a crowd of seven and a half billion souls, there is one girl who thinks of you deeply, thinks of you every day, loves you still with that pure, undiluted love. Not a shadow has fallen across it even now!
If she could only be assured of having you once more, she would shatter the entire world and place a whole lifetime into your hands with a smile. She would want to live a thousand years again. She would dream again of two little ones and a humble home, would weave the story of a family anew.

Just the other day—in a separation of merely six and a quarter hours—I broke down and sobbed so miserably. And yet today I have effortlessly, without hesitation, lived through six full years without you! It wasn’t so hard to live without you, but forgetting you never quite happened. I still haven’t learned how to forget you! The way you walked, the way you spoke, your laughter, your songs, your voice—none of it has faded.

No one quite like him has come my way again, and I have never loved anyone the way I loved him.

Life goes on, life simply goes on. Time slips away, time runs out. Days, months, years pass—and six whole years have already drifted by!

…Truly, there is nothing a human being cannot endure!