I am only that one

Did I ever call to her!
Did I ever hold her close
in this heart of mine,
here and there!
Did I ever find courage, even that much!

This rootless me—
did I ever send a letter,
anonymous!

Did I ever run my hand through that defiant hair!
Could I ever forget her, and
love only myself!

That I am nothing but her—
does she know this at all!