House of Longing

 
One.
Like this—nursing my hurt feelings...
I dash off something! The very next moment I think,
what if sending this upsets you?
I don't want you upset,
so I delete it. Then again, what if
it's not just upset—what if you get really angry?
You could say I delete so many texts out of fear!


Two.
These days, the moment I wake
I feel you lying beside me, feel myself touching you...
Actually, I wake up much later...I don't realize at first.


Three.
There was something I meant to say. Whether I've eaten or bathed—
don't ask me about any of that! I have my mother for such things.
You just need to love me. You will, won't you?


Four.
I feel you so deeply.
When we meet face to face, let me hold you tight.
For a long time though! Don't pull away so quickly
the way you always do...why are you always in such a rush?
It hurts me somehow...
I think, so much is still left unsaid!


Five.
Somewhere, someday, you and I will have a room.
There we can do whatever we want, whenever we want.
Not a single moment of mine will be wasted then.
All the hours we've spent waiting will truly end that day!
That room will be called—the House of Wishes.


Six.
That day, in one of your poems...I saw my name.
The joy I felt seeing it...how can I say!
Sometimes even these small things
make me so happy!


Seven.
In my eyes, you are like the vast sky itself...
may each of my mornings belong to you in your own way...
Even when I remember that you love me,
sometimes I grow melancholy, suffer from guilt.
I keep thinking I'm terribly unworthy of you!