As love grows old, it ceases to be love alone—it becomes, in time, an entire household.
Whether he eats properly, whether he is well, whether his heart is at ease—you find yourself wanting to know these things always. The salt was short in today's curry at home, you stumbled on the street, three hairs have turned white on the tea-stall uncle's head—all these trifles must be reported to him again and again, in careful detail.
You must tell him: the rat under the bed has had three babies, the beloved wristwatch has gone missing since morning, the sugar jar slipped from your hand and shattered.
In time, you come to know him with perfect exactness—his favorite color, his favorite song, his favorite sorrow.
You learn which words stir his old wounds awake, which words make his heart dance.
One day you stop needing to impress him. Without kohl around your eyes, in old sandals, you no longer feel yourself ugly in his presence. You can go to him without any preparation, just as you are.
Like the pet cat or dog in a home, he too becomes, in time, a beloved possession. He becomes a habit you cannot break—the comfortable weight of years.
As the years deepen, he ceases to be a lover. He becomes instead a whole house, a roof, an umbrella—life's most cherished breath.
Two people become, at last, one soul in two bodies.
A strange enchantment, an affectionate pull! He is not kin by blood, yet he is as essential as blood itself—someone you cannot leave, cannot live without.
One day you understand with certainty: he will never leave you. Who abandons half of themselves and runs? Two people become bound together by some mysterious, tender rope—bound tight and fast.
We surrender so easily to love, to affection and habit. Nothing in the world subdues us more completely than love.
And so a person becomes half-human—one half remains their own, the other half remains with that other person. Should that one essential being ever depart this life, what remains must live on as only half a person, incomplete.
Most households in this world are the homes of two half-people. These two, having left half their souls with two others, subsist together in the bonds of illusion and habit. The household is a curious, intricate place; it is here alone that two halves, when joined, never truly become whole.