Dense Silence Raining Down

Suddenly, in fear of losing you, body and soul—
seem to grow numb together,
my eyelids growing heavy.

I am not crying—
yet a single drop of water
rolled down my cheek onto the phone screen.

These days the dizziness has worsened.
It feels as though at any moment
my body will collapse to the ground.

Before, always in the realm of imagination—
love's fierce touch
I would write to you in fragments.

But do you know?
Now I can truly feel you,
completely in reality.
It seems you are very close to me—
right beside me, a breath away.

Somehow I feel—
we will never speak again.
...just thinking this makes me shiver!

Do you know,
I tell you the complete truth these days!
What I write is exactly what happens to me.

Will I never see you again?
I am terribly afraid...