Bonsai of Thoughts: Nineteen

1. Ah, if only tears could wash away
nightmares too!

2. The hand I once held to survive,
today another holds that same hand to live.

Doesn't it pain you to bear the weight of two at once?

3. The person who laughs life away with such ease—
why do you keep that very person in such tears!

4. I dream of you and wake with a start!
Then I wonder, why am I bothering you even in dreams!
The poor soul has done nothing wrong!

5. I search for your shadow
in every man I meet...!

I won't find you,
no one else will find me.

6. Why do you come without being called?
Before, you wouldn't come even when I called!

7. When you were beside me,
forgetting you
was actually easier then!

8. Don't think me weary from seeing my laughter.
I truly want to cry but simply cannot!

9. It's not that
whenever I have time, I think of you!
Thinking of you, I lose all sense of time!

10. Those who remain in my life—
I barely remember them!
But the one who left my life,
I can never forget!

11. Why are your memories so reckless?
They don't even ask permission before entering my room!

12. I won't force you to keep promises,
just come and take back the memories!

13. Holding you in every breath,
one day I'll suffocate and die!

14. You don't have to love me,
just tell me once, in your own voice,
that you hate me.
I simply cannot
make myself believe this simple truth!

15. When you were here, I was angry
that you wouldn't listen to my heart.
Today I'm angry that my heart won't listen to me.

16. You're not to blame,
it's all my fate!

17. Just for the hope of seeing you in dreams,
these days I fall asleep quickly!

18. Whatever you did with me,
don't do the same with her.
People won't believe the same fabricated story twice!
Even human trust has its limits!

19. You forgot everything so easily!
Did you cheat your way to first place in university too?

20. When you can't forget someone,
what else can you do
but keep them in memory!