Bonsai of Thoughts: Forty-Five

1. Why do you want to know how I am?
I don't even try to find out myself!
Days pass, I remain alive...
I don't ask for more than this!

2. It's not that I don't know how to block.
The problem is, I don't know how to block you!

3. Today you are not here.
Today, after so long, I will sleep.
Even when going to bed, I used to be afraid—
what if you mind!
Don't come back anymore, I am so tired.

4. When I write unpleasant truths without naming anyone,
whoever feels the sting,
I understand—those truths apply to that person alone!

5. Looking into the mirror in your room,
don't look at me anymore;
the mirror in my room today shows only ruins!

6. Do you think you've shown great courage by disrespecting me?
Oh fool, even to disrespect someone requires a certain qualification!

7. When you're beside me, naturally, but even when you're not,
I feel like a thief!
Why do you want to maintain a relationship with someone you've turned into such a thief?

8. Love, romance, hatred—I understand none of it!
I only understand this: I want to be with whoever gives me peace of mind.

9. Why does someone come into my life
who will never be mine!
There's no shortage of tears in this life anymore!

10. Why does everyone say there's something good in your fate?
Why don't they understand—what's good for me is only what I love!

11. Are you pulling my hand to take me to heaven, friend?
First go to heaven yourself and show me! How can I believe without proof?

12. Those who think staying in another religion keeps you far from God—
stay away from them, if you truly understand God!

13. We know only as much
as we can think.
If the pillar of thought isn't strong, the pillar of knowledge shakes!

14. Whatever I give you, I'll give it all without counting!
So when you give to me, please give with calculation!

15. What I had wanted—
how easy it was not to get it,
I never understood...until I didn't get it!

16. Burning with desire, a person finds chastity even in touch!
Crying with hunger, a child understands even cruelty as a right!

17. What you're searching for in me—
do you really need those things?
Or are you searching because they're not there,
so you can hurt me with words?

18. They think I love silence.
I know I have no one to talk to.

19. Friend, why do you work so hard?
Because of need? Or driven by nature?

20. You think you're a bit mad!
Completely wrong assumption! You're not a bit mad—you're completely mad!
Oh fool, would anyone fall in love with me if they weren't mad?