Bonsai of Thoughts: Eighteen

1. If I ever forget,
assume this:
I am silent only for your own good!

2. 'Why do I love?'
'Why did you appear?'

3. When exactly did you decide
you would leave me?
When I fell in love?
Or when you fell in love?

4. When you went completely silent,
from that moment I began
receiving answers to all my questions!

5. Seeing you, I understood:
separation is love's truest beauty!

6. What you are asking for—
how can I give it?
I am not you, after all!

7. If you don't wish to forget me,
burn my letters!

8. Why draw me close to possess my body?
If you had wanted my body from afar,
would I have asked for money?

9. Relationships...
need love
to be born,
need sorrow
to survive.

10. Today I understand:
our world belonged to me alone,
your world belonged to you alone—
my world has been lost.

11. Don't come to me in dreams anymore!
I'm rather busy with separation at the moment!

12. Don't even think that I can't sleep
for thinking of you! The problem is,
your memory isn't nearly the gentleman you were!

13. I'm amazed by the friendship between you and my tears!
Today you're gone, yet still
the friendship remains intact!

14. Let time come—
I will surely forget you!
Death seems close enough;
wait a little!

15. Too busy to remember me?
There—I am that girl
around whom all your busyness once revolved...!

16. Don't think
I waste time thinking of you!
When someone does their appointed work, does that waste their time, tell me?

17. How does one laugh, tell me,
with a heart full of completeness?
How does one cry, tell me,
with a heart full of emptiness?

18. You've gone, of course!
And won't return, I know!
Then why am I still waiting?

19. Why do you torment me so much these days?
When you were here, you never tormented me at all!

20. What is it you possess!
Otherwise, what am I still searching for today?