Bonsai of Thought: Sixty-One

1. Just as I am, remaining exactly so—
if I can live with a peaceful mind,
if I can grow even a little more,
—whoever grants me this much, I call beloved.

2. The entire path of becoming human
is ringed by the most beautiful sorrow.

3. I love suffering;
because I want
to have some stories worth telling too.

4. Do you love cats? Or dogs?
I don't know, but I do know this much—I don't love humans.

5. Only the weak need to be cruel!
The strong have other paths!

6. Even if you see me sleeping,
if I say I'm busy, then I am busy!

7. What I wanted to say, no one understood.
What I didn't want to say, everyone assumed was my heart's truth.

8. I thought too well of you.
Later I see, you're a bit too vile.

9. Hurting the one I love
without knowing it in my own heart... what a terribly awful experience!

10. Human sorrow in this world isn't only about love;
the other sorrows make us weep much more.

Parents, friends, siblings, close ones, colleagues, studies, career—the anguish people feel over these makes the pain of love seem trivial!

11. I want to leave,
I want to stay.

I want to gain,
I want to lose.

12. Before Covid came to this world, I thought
if I got a little time in hand, I'd sort my life out!

Later I saw, never mind life—I couldn't even organize my study table!

13. Rather than the feeling
'Being with you makes me feel love,'
the feeling 'Being with you makes me feel safe' is far more essential.

14. I read and keep reading.
My heart needs some beautiful words to find peace.

15. I live through words alone.
I believe that one day my cluster of words will tell what I want.

16. I know I won't recover completely;
I'm only asking for a time better than this time.

17. Did everyone really give you sorrow?
Did none of them receive any sorrow from you?

18. You came so many years late!
Still, you came!

19. From this century to that century...
the duck floated away on the water.
As it left, it saw the world's face hadn't changed much.

20. Enough!
I've been cowering in fear for many years.
Now stop—I have work to do!