Beyond Silence

How are you?
(Even today you remain unchanged, terribly indifferent. Though time has shifted, the depth in your eyes is still the same—wrapped in neglect, shrouded in detachment.)

I don't know.
(How I've searched for you, how many times I've wanted to touch and feel our memory's half-burned, unfinished stories! But do you know, they still haven't burned to ash, those festering wounds still scorch every corner of my heart!)

Don't want to say more, I suppose?
(Of course, there was never any need. You never let anything exist between us beyond necessity!)

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(Still, to this you, only to you, I had so much to say! Only you could understand all the feelings inside me. Then why did you walk down this path of separation? Where was my mistake? Or was everything just my fault alone?)

What's wrong, why aren't you speaking?
(Your silence pours yet another drop of darkness into the deep emptiness of my chest.)

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(Your eyes are so beautiful, you know? Even today I haven't been able to escape their spell anywhere. Have you ever wondered why I still want to understand the language of your eyes? How did you become so cruel that your eyes never say—"You cannot stay without loving me!")

I thought I'd never bring myself before you again; yet I never imagined I'd have to come to you like this today. I just couldn't stay silent anymore.
(Even when you stay quiet, I can understand your heart's words—don't you realize this even after all this time? Foolish boy! Even today you couldn't hide your feelings from me with silence!)

I'm doing okay. What's happened to you? You look very tired, you should be doing wonderfully.
(I want to touch and feel your tired body. Tell me, don't I have that right today? Or do I? Say something...)

Hmm, I'm well.
(Can anyone be well after leaving you? Why did you even think I'm truly well! Can one be well just by staying alive?)

I see you're still the same calm-natured person as before.
(I was once part of this unburdened, peaceful expression of yours. Today I want to hold you close and reclaim that touch of peace.)

Is it because you know me so well that there's so much distance between us now?
(I can't look into your eyes, you know? Your sleepless eyes full of hurt consume me completely.)

Let's not talk about all that.
(Don't go... I have this feeling you want to slip away again through silent commotion; but no, this time I won't let you escape!)

I have to leave.
(The restlessness inside you is tearing my chest to shreds. Let me go, or else... hold me tight just once!)