Beloved Curse

Even in blackest dark, your name alone holds light's dominion!
In all this life, you are my one beloved curse, my sweet companion!

Let this moonless night not end...not just once, I implore!
I promise, the full moon's grace I'll save for you once more!

I too was once a lantern of some hue,
floating free, scattering silken trails behind!
I too was someone's cherished one, it's true—
perhaps in memory's ledger...never mind!

Oh, give me just a little longer time...
let me love you stubbornly a while, in my headstrong way!

Could I not have lived without this fraud, this pantomime?
Whatever else may fail, the reverence I hold
for you would harbor not the smallest lie today!
Why did you send me far away...at such an hour...in a yellow fold?
Pierced by love so false, I call you coward's name,
and this punishment—if you could understand—how much I simply die, day and night, in shame!