Don’t do it. At
least I’ll be able to read your posts.
Such nonsense!
I saw, I understood.
What?
Nothing.
Oh!
You have a lot of people to talk to and that’s why you can
see the message but do not reply anything.
Think whatever you want!
Fine, forget it. I won’t bother you anymore. Enjoy your time.
You too.
Hmm.
So, you won’t talk? It was wrong of me to sulk with you. Somehow I thought you’d come and break my sulk, but you actually don’t put any effort!
You’re absolutely terrible!
Very much so.
Really, truly terrible.
You managed just fine staying silent without talking. I had to be the one to reach out! See, I’m the one who couldn’t hold out.
Does anyone make such trouble for such a cute baby like me?
I’m so terrible.
You really are!
When did I pick a fight? And I’m the baby here. You don’t pamper your baby at all!
Ugh! You’re a cockroach baby! I’m the good baby.
The baby sulked, but you didn’t even care!
I pamper you a lot.
Rubbish.
I give you so many kisses. Baby doesn’t understand.
You managed to spend the whole day without talking! What was so wrong with what I did, tell me?
You make me so sad. You don’t pamper me, just talk harshly all the time.
All I expected was that you’d call after 2 minutes.
I have to pamper you a lot. And I do.
I said I’d go get tea, call me in 2 minutes. That’s it! That’s the crime! I don’t do what everyone else does, damn it! I’m not everyone else! I’m just me!
Yes, you are just you.
Forget it, drop it.
The Great Sweetheart!
Yeah! Right!
I’m not talking about everyone else.
Thousands are dying for you, so you give a fuck about me!
I don’t know if you have something going on with anyone else. But I don’t………Stop talking nonsense!
With anyone else?
Enough! Go to sleep now like a good boy!
I won’t sleep.
Then stay awake and watch cartoons.
Fine, you go. You don’t need to make so many excuses to leave. I said I want direct talks.
I don’t make excuses.
Then why are you sending me away?
I’m quite the naughty type. If I can’t show that with you, then who can I show it to, tell me?
You’re telling me to go sleep, telling me to watch cartoons.
You get angry at that too!
I’m not angry, darling!
I talk formally with everyone. (Even with my wife, on the phone.) Fine, I’ll talk to you that way too, won’t come close.
There’s a big difference between anger and hurt. Learn to understand that difference. If you want to be a lover, you need to understand that difference, my dear.
Happy? I won’t say anything, won’t come close!
I didn’t ask you to talk formally.
Isn’t that what you want? Fine then.
You don’t soothe hurt feelings—you didn’t yesterday, not today either.
I soothe hurt feelings by speaking lovingly, by being tender. I can’t do that with you. You’ll scold me.
Yesterday I thought you’d call, today I thought so too.
You don’t like that. Even this morning I was speaking so tenderly.
What you do with everyone else, you’ll do with me too?
I was really feeling it when I said those things. And you scolded me!
I didn’t scold you this morning!
Everyone else means what? I used to do it with my ex.
You said it yourself! Oh!
Why do you say such nonsense? Ugh! You misunderstand everything. How will this work if it’s like this?
I don’t know! You don’t explain things properly!
The one I loved, I did it with her.
Okay.
I was tender with heart and body both.
Mm-hmm.
I don’t just feel tenderness in my heart alone.
Oh!
I feel with both heart and body. Don’t misunderstand.
I’m getting it.
Our friendship can survive.
Sure!
Let it endure.
Thanks!
Nothing else matters
if you don’t want it. I
don’t think of you as just a friend, but you do—
that’s the problem.
If you really talk about physical intimacy then I’m sorry. That’s not possible for me.
I believe that
love includes the body.
Everything else is perhaps friendship.
Hmm. Could be. I’ve
made my position clear. Now it’s totally your choice. I did
love my ex but we never met. Therefore, not all love involves the body. At least not
for me.
I respect your
thoughts, I’ve just shared
mine.
Thank you.
I didn’t have sex with my
ex, but we did kiss. We didn’t
meet that often.
I never met at all.
He was out of the country.
Your life follows
your thoughts, mine follows
mine. That’s the rule.
I understand. Now tell me
what you want.
How much can you
love without meeting? I’ve written down
some of my thoughts about this. I have more thoughts. I’ll share them when I get the chance.
For me, love is
purely a matter of the heart.
I don’t want anything,
silly!
I feel for the soul, not for the body! Lol…….mischief!
I don’t come running to you
with plans to want something. The body? Huh! That’s not such a big deal. But in love
it will come naturally, you won’t
have to force it. The heart is much more important.
I’m getting scared.
That’s exactly why I
don’t believe in loveless sex. There’s nothing to fear. I won’t
force you into anything.
Nothing happens by force anyway.
Your net sucks again! Fucker!
Yep I am
a fucker, very very good
one!
No wonder!
How did you know?
Call me, fool,
if you’re free.
Strange! You’re an ass,
you’re stupid,
you’re a fool, you’re a bug!
I can guess, you are good in bed! Oh wait, you’re a termite! Will you call?
How did you guess
that? I’m curious to know!
Seriously!
Once I go home, we won’t
talk anymore. Anyway, forget it. You’re
maybe busy.
Bullshit.
I asked if you’d
call or not. Weird!
You’re busy yourself. The phone
won’t connect.
Bullshit. Call me.
Seriously, the network shows busy. I keep trying.
Okay, forget it.
Okay.
Hmm.
You’ve blocked me. My number. For sure! Okay fine!
Shut up! I didn’t!
Stop talking shit, will you? I keep calling.
I don’t talk shit.
And the network shows busy.
You’re talking shit.
You talk shit.
Lol……..
Why lol? Didn’t it get up?
Ewwwww
Why? Okay okay!
Lol…….Seriously did you call?
So many times!
I don’t know!
I don’t lie, asshole!
Husband caught me! I was walking further away.
I didn’t understand.
When you called, I was walking away to go talk outside.
You really can’t be reached!
It’s OK. I understand.
I keep calling from my Robi number.
I don’t know! Try Banglalink.
Didn’t get through from BL either.
I can recharge and call. Haven’t recharged yet.
But why can’t I reach you?
I don’t know. Maybe your heart doesn’t really want to!
Don’t play with me, stupid! Asshole!
I don’t play. And learn to trust what I say a little. I don’t lie.
You teach me.
Good boys don’t need to be taught.
I’m not good, I’m naughty, restless.
I know you are. You do act up. But you have to be a good boy too. Rare combination!
I’m good in bed – you never told me how you figured that out! Tell me that.
Naughty plus good…….Lol
I’m an asshole.
I also asked two questions. You didn’t answer either one. Answer those first.
Answer mine first.
Which one?
Yesterday you wanted to confess something – that. And the secret reason for being rude to me.
I won’t do that.
(At least, I won’t do it now.)
These two things.
I won’t say that either
right now. The answer to both is the same.
You never listen
to anything I say.
I do listen. You
tell me now.
Do I have any value
to you at all? It’s always whatever you
want that happens.
Don’t fight.
You don’t give any
importance to what I want. I’m not fighting, I’m hurt,
and I’m sharing that with you.
Don’t be hurt.
I don’t like it when you’re hurt.
But you’re hurting me!
You’re very much
the pampered type.
If you don’t like it,
don’t do it.
So, don’t be hurt.
Don’t hurt me.
I don’t.
But you are!
You just pick fights
with me for no reason. That’s not right.
I’m not picking a fight.
Do you know how good
I am? Do you? Go on, do it!
I’ve been asking for
three days. You’re both good and bad. When you behave yourself, you’re good. And when you’re naughty, you’re bad.
I’m not that good.
You really won’t tell me?
I’m not loyal,
I’m naughty, I’m what else again!
Won’t you answer
those two questions? I don’t judge
the loyalty thing.
No, I won’t answer now. I have a lot of confusion
about you. I need to observe you a bit more. I don’t know how much you’re really mine. You still don’t trust me, damn it! I need to know
more.
Lol…….testing me?
Fine. Let me have lunch.
Go ahead. Is this the time
for lunch now? In the afternoon! Fine.
What else can I do! Why are
you scolding me? Coughing my life
away!
Oh my poor baby!
Where were you?
Someone came to
my room.
Okay. Sorry. Get back to
work. Ping me when you’re free later.
Damn. Don’t be so
formal. Okay?
Yes, silly! It’s not being formal. You’ll have work at the office! You’re not unemployed like me! Ugh! Your damn internet!
I like my damn!
Ew!
Seriously!
You rascal! Go away,
I won’t talk to you anymore!
Why won’t you say it?
I’m afraid, Dupur! Our relationship won’t last much longer.
Why?
Just a feeling.
Why?
Just a feeling. I knew you are gonna leave!
What made you think that?
Nothing in particular.
Just tell me you’ll leave, damn it!
No. But you will.
Why’s that?
I just know. I can sense. I’m a bit intuitive!……..Oh damn! Late replies disturb me like hell! Damn! You are on call? Found a replacement so quickly!
Damn! You’re like that yourself, so you think I am too. I’ll give you a good one!
I’m not like that. Where are you? ………… Forget it! Go on, just leave!
I’m listening to music.
Alright, listen away.
I’ll sit down to write in a bit. Will you listen? Should I send you the link?
Send it.
Ek Peyar Ka Nagma Hai. Listen, it’s one of my very favorite songs. Then listen to Kisi Raha Mein, Kisi Mod Par. Tum Ko Dekha To Ye Khayal Aya. You can listen to this ghazal too.
Wonderful! So beautiful!
Agar Hum Kahein Aur Wo Muskura De. These songs are so dear to me!
Wow! Nice choice! Yaad Koi Baat Bigad Jayi. Listen to this one too.
Damn!
Why? Did I go overboard? One more thing………Not ‘if I be somewhere and she smiles for me’ it would be ‘if I say and she smiles I would give up on my life’ Everyone’s giving you wrong translations in the comments.
Is that song really your favorite? Seriously? I’m amazed for a particular reason.
Why? I’ve been listening to that song since I was very young. The lyrics are so beautiful.
That was my ex’s absolute favorite song. (Mine too, actually.) She would write out the meaning and send it to me whenever I was upset. And sing it over the phone. (Sadly, I don’t know how much she really meant all those words herself.) I know what it means.
Hmm.
Your favorite song too!
Aren’t you going to write?…….Yes, sir.
I’ll sit down now. I listened to quite a few songs.
Mine too. Alright, get to your writing. You won’t like disturbances while writing.
Alright, dear!
Hehe…..bye bye.
Someone is missing a silly girl…….
Someone is missing a naughty boy……….you really are naughty!
Oh my, why?
Go away!
Okay babe!
Wow!
What?
Nothing.
Alright, fine.
Hmm. Someone doesn’t even have time to check messages.
Hey! What do you mean? Where? I’m writing, aren’t I!
Never mind. I can understand.
Bullshit!
It’s OK, dear Mr Dupur!
Why are you sulking?
I’m not sulking.
Alright.
I can understand you are busy. And as I said I never force anything on anyone, I won’t force you to talk to me either.
What a messed up life. Have you read it? No strings attached?
No. Couldn’t find it. I looked for it.
Here you go, read this. For my baby……..
Thank you so much.
Too formal? Okay fine.
I don’t know if it’s formal or not, I’m learning to control myself. Those who don’t know how to control themselves suffer the most.
What nonsense! You’re such a monkey!
Even if I’m not a monkey, I’m not much prettier than one either.
Are you reading the piece? Should I call?
I’m trying to read it……..how can I talk on the phone this late at night? You ask such strange questions!
I don’t know. I feel like talking. That’s all I know.
You don’t feel like it.
How can you say that?
I can tell. I’m foolish, but not that much.
Okay. Whatever you think!
Whatever you make me think!
Hmm. What are you doing now? Did you read the piece?
Nothing. Yes, I read it.
The whole thing?
If you don’t want to see the answer, why ask the question?……..Yes, the whole thing.
I see.
You don’t have to force conversation.
How did you like it?
There you go. It hurt. But I also liked it. I felt like giving you a hug.
Oh my! She even wants to hug me!
Lol……..I don’t! I felt like it.
That kind of feeling just happens!
Let those feelings stay alive!
Should I keep what
can be fulfilled too?
When I was reading,
tears were streaming down your face—
it hurt to see. Is there any
wish you have that could
be fulfilled?
Most of our
wishes we can never fulfill. But some wishes can be fulfilled if we really want to. I’m talking about
those.
Like what?
Many things. The kind
that can be fulfilled if we really want them.
Tell me one.
Like the other day
when I walked with you. I was only with you for half an hour, but even that brought me so much joy. I fulfilled that wish. It was
possible to fulfill.
Pleasure was mine.
I could die
any time.
Hush! You naughty
little termite!
I wanna live my life as long as I’m alive. As much as possible! Living without regret is truly living!
I sent you a piece
of writing. Did you read it?
Yes. It was
beautiful.
You didn’t read it. But you’re saying
it’s beautiful.
I can read
very fast.
Wow! So many talents
you have! Why are you wasting time with a fool like me?
Anything else?
No. Nothing
else.
Read today’s piece.
Let me know how you liked it.
I will. But
if I fall in love with you, I won’t tell you.
Oh my! Will you
really fall?
I won’t fall. I’ll
catch you before I even read it.
I asked you to read
the note.
I’m reading.
Still?
Go to sleep. It’s
too late at night.
Alright, fine. You sleep too.
Why do you stay up so late?
Don’t you have work in the morning?
…………………………………………………
Good morning,
ascetic of love!
I sent you a text,
but nobody even bothers with
me! Is it because I look awful that I have no worth?
Won’t you even sleep?
Ugh, what attitude! I really do
look awful!
Who are you talking about—me or you?
Why wouldn’t I sleep?
You look absolutely sweet!
Silly!
I look awful. That’s
why you don’t bother with me. I understand!
Don’t lie. I’ve
mirrors in my room.
Which part is a lie?
I’ve as well! And, I’ve eyes too!
I know I look fuck!
Fuck? Ahem ahem!
Lol! Fucker!
You’re a fucker? Are you sure you fuck well?
Ugh! Nothing stops at your mouth!
What?
Fine, forget it.
Okay.
Busy boss! Go!
You only know how to shoo me away! OK, I’m leaving.
You’re never really here! And you are always on your way to leave!
Your head!
See! You don’t even see my messages!
I do see them.
Yeah…….right!
When I fall asleep, I can’t see them anymore. That’s my limitation!
I’m talking about now.
What can I do?
There’s no such thing as limitations. You have to stay!
Listen girl, quiet! If you keep fighting I’ll absolutely punch you and break your nose!
Oh my!
Which of yesterday’s two pieces is better, in your eyes?
The two are different kinds, dummy!
Yes. Neither one is good?
And I’m supposed to judge your writing? I’m not that crazy!………..The writing isn’t good at all!
So? Rotten?
Writing that brings tears to the eyes isn’t good at all. You’re busy, dear. Go!
Where should tears come then for it to be good?
Lol…….to the mouth!
Oh I see!
Sneha was asking me how’s my Dupur!
Does water have to come to the mouth from somewhere else? Ehhh!
What’s with the ehhh?
Ehhh your head!
Lol……if you’re busy then go! I can sense you are busy.
You’re a ‘lol baby’!
And that hurts……don’t call me baby. Sounds cheap!
I’m on meditation, sweetheart! The greatest meditation in the world!
Meditation?
Yes……..Performed sitting on an elevated plane……
Explain it to me!
That transforms you to a different state of mind and body……..You feel relaxed……Your mind, your body………..
Hahahaha………
You get peace, you dive into happiness!
Am I disturbing you? I’m not intended to do so!
No no, I feel relaxed when I’m with you.
Oh my! Flattered!
Can you sense the similarity between these two?
Which two?
Your presence and my meditation?
Lol no! I’m no one!
Both relax me!
I don’t help I’m sure!
And, these two mean a lot to me!
I mean nothing! That’s why you keep saying bye!
Not exactly…… Sometimes I feel like saying ta ta to this meditation, but I can’t help being into it! You’re the same! I can’t live without you.
Awww……..Now it was something too much! You don’t even pay attention to me!
Anyway, meditation over……. Coming out of the washroom and knocking!
Ugh! You rascal!
Meow……. The peace I feel after lightening my stomach is the same peace I get when you’re beside me. You’re as beautiful and soothing as taking a dump!
You devil! You don’t come unless I call you!
Here I am!
You came because I called! Such coming is better left undone.
You know what?
You never come on your own! ……… What is it, tell me!
Okay, I won’t come anymore! Sorry!
Exactly!
Okay.
You won’t want to come anyway.
If you understand that, what more can I say!
What else can I do!
Alright!
Tell me where all you want to go!
You just spoil my mood! Silly. I was on your profile!
One who wants to leave can’t be held back.
Fine, don’t hold me back.
You on my profile!
Yes. Alright, I’m leaving. I’ll write.
Okay.
Be good.
Take care.
Seeing your photos has become an addiction for me! I can resist!
Photo!
I often see your photos.
Where do you get to see them?
I’ve some downloaded in a desktop folder.
I don’t have any photos on public.
From your profile.
Seriously? I thought I’ve got privacy.
You’ve many photos public. Yap!
Fuck! I didn’t even know!
Whom? You? OK I’ll!
Hahahah………In your dreams!
OK I’ll…….now bye.
Shut up! OK ta ta. Tc.
I love to….why shut up?
You love to do what?
The thing you suggested!
I didn’t! Go on, mister! I’ll trap you later.
OK OK don’t escape!
You won’t be able to leave.
I’ve already set you free. ta ta…..
I don’t escape.
You do! Read some writing in the meantime.
I said I’ll trap you.
If I feel like it……..
Yes, dear! I’ll read your writing. But whenever I feel like stumbling I stop reading……..Coz I don’t want to fall! How sweet you’re! What if I fall? Coz I don’t want to!
After Distance. Read this one first.
Maybe I’ve read this one already.
Listen here, sir! You’re giving me so many story links, when will I finish reading them all?
I won’t give any more. Bye for now!
Come here for a moment!
Will you be affectionate if I come? You don’t have that courage! I won’t come.
Fine, don’t come.
Alright. I’m coming.
I called you with such emotion!
Be tender with me!
It was for the first time!
Listen, let me tell you something.
And it will be the last time. Go away.
Why can’t I reach your mobile phone?
I don’t know. You mischievous little pest. What are you doing?
Writing. What else would I do? I can’t do anything else! What are you doing?
At the market. Finished writing? Or still writing? I liked the last post. You understand women’s hearts well.
Why? I’m still writing.
What do you mean why?
I’m going to write a very long piece.
Fine, write. Sorry.
Six and a half thousand
words already!
Wow!
Why do I feel like
I understand this well?
Write, dear! I can tell I’m bothering you.
I just keep writing.
I hadn’t written for so long. When I sit down to write, I lose all sense of time. I just keep writing.
Sorry. Didn’t
realize.
Saying sorry so many times—
are you trying to drift away? I’m the one who’s sorry. It’s okay. Enjoy your time.
Write, dear. Interrupting in the middle of writing causes problems. Don’t do this, sweet boy.
Disturbing someone while they’re writing breaks the flow. That’s why I’m saying this, little bug. I don’t want you to face any kind of trouble because of me.
No, it’s not that. You came, then disappeared again. Or you’re leaving. You’re disappearing.
You’re awful.
Where? I’m here! You didn’t say a word all day.
I was writing.
Writing is sooo hard. You’d understand. Because you write so beautifully too.
That’s exactly why
I didn’t disturb you. I?……write? What are you saying?
What you’ve written,
I’ve read. I liked it.
Means a lot……..even if you’re
just saying it to make me happy!
Don’t talk nonsense.
What do I gain by making you happy? Is there any need to insult you?
Praise for my writing
from someone like you! I’m truly happy. So very much.
Saying that means
you’re telling me I don’t understand the quality of writing.
Not an insult.
Because you know too, what the quality of your writing is…….and here you are calling my writing beautiful!
There are three things
I understand really well.
What are they?
The play of words.
Music. Movies. There’s one more.