A Personal 'Whatever'

 You are such a wretch!
 I won't listen to a word you say,
 won't accept anything... whatever you tell me is all lies!
 The hero of my story—that's only you,
 there's a villain too, quite wicked... that's also you!
 How much you hurt me, make tears fall from these eyes,
 you're the one who neglects, you're the one who makes excuses,
 you anger me, make me restless and lift me up,
 drive me mad, break my pride,
 you pull me close, you cherish me...
 and then that same you kills me with love!
  
 I see you keep everything in your own hands!
 The battlefield is yours, the soldiers yours, the weapons yours too!
 What kind of person am I in all this? What's my worth?
 Truly, you are such a wretch!
 I don't want anything anymore, I don't want you anymore!
 You don't give me time, yet you say, keep your spirits up, smile a little!
 Hey, am I some robot?
 I need you to be well! That's all! Got it, fool?
 How you hide yourself, don't let me understand even a bit;
 yet you want me to understand you like I understand myself! Does that work?
  
 Why don't you say anything? Then how do you claim to love?
 Does anyone love like this? Is this what they call love?
 Don't you know what people do when they truly love?
 You really are such a wretch!
 I don't accept you,
 I'll pick a hundred fights with you, count them out,
 I won't be calm anymore!
 This time I won't listen to a single prohibition!
 Whatever happens in this realm, the burden of understanding it all seems to be mine alone!
 There are people throughout the world... whether they understand or not, I must understand everything!
 Why is it so? I don't understand all that! I'm just a small person!
  
 I have no demands,
 only to rest my head on your chest and drink in that love!
 That's all I want!
 Except for you, I need nothing else of yours! I have no attachment to those things, not even a bit!
 You won't be anyone else! If someone says there's another like you,
 that's just false babble! I've understood plenty!
  
 Don't come to explain all that to me!
 I've seen enough—no one can become 'you'! I only need you!
 I have one 'you'! Except for that 'you'... everything else is false to me!
 My world is also very small!
 You are the sun of that small world, you are the moon too!
 You are my weary noon, my peaceful night beyond evening!
 I can't be calm today, can't stay quiet!
 I can't say anything properly today!
 Either understand, or stick your nose where it doesn't belong... I'll throw a punch!