Don't stop missing me, please... even if I don't know if I still have you. Even if you are only in scattered memories, and in the words that lie between us. I need you to be in my thoughts, in the silence after midnight before I fall asleep, everywhere...but mostly deep inside me. I need to cry...for you, and for everything that did not come true. Shoot me with thousands of doubts, and stop to die for a while. And then revive me with your hands, and delete any question marks from me. Don't stop missing me, please... If this pain disappears, I will be empty. I don't want to forget how much I love you even if I forget that you loved me too. I don't want you in my life for a second even if you are the most terrible lack in it. Let me be a dot for you, describing everything I could be. In many points I will hide everything unsaid, everything I was and was not. I also turned the expectation of you into a dot, because none of us could write the point...
# A Dot For You I place a dot here for you, a small point on the endless page— not a period that closes anything, but a seed that might grow into a word, a phrase, a world. See how it catches the light? How it holds its own smallness with such quiet dignity? This dot is patient. It has nowhere to rush. I could have written your name— those letters your mother chose, the syllables that have carried you through decades of becoming. But a dot seemed more honest somehow, more like the space between what we say and what we mean. It is the pause before speech, the silence in a conversation where understanding deepens. It is the period of a sigh, the full stop of a glance held just a moment too long. I place this dot here for you because words fail— they always do— and sometimes the truest things are the ones we cannot say, only mark with a point, a speck, a small dark circle on the vastness of white. Let it be enough. Let it be everything.
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